I have been slack lately, yes i know, but here is my blog for the last like week?
I worked at the show, it started off ok, was for a spit company, im not even going to mention their name as they can go and jump in a creek with a cement slab tied to their feet as far as im concerned! i was doing th 8-3 shift, on saturday i asked for my lunch break at 2pm, her reply was "no, your not entitled to a lunch break when you do the 5 hour shift" i looked at her, gave her an evil stare and said " Exscuse me, i have been here since 8am, i am in my 6th hour, i have had 1 toilet break all day, and i finish in an hour, if you are not going to give me my lunch break, i will just walk off and take it!" Mind you the smokers could go outside for a smoke whenever they felt like one, took longer out there than you did on a loo break! even when busy as, they were still allowed out there WTF! she became a real bitch as she wasnt selling no spits, so was taking it out on as, getting arky, snapping etc, so i didnt go in on sunday :) i called in sick :P i went down to get my pay tho, $13 an hour! slave labour!
Food wise, has been ok, no problems as yet, i think i need another fill to be honest. although i havent been eating much from stress wise, pissing me off majorly. brad took snags out last night for tea, oh yay! im so over them im sick of them! i might have a fish thing i dont know.
Im so tired, didnt get much sleep from working at show, although i came home exhausted, i still couldnt sleep, me and brad had a fight sunday night, couldnt sleep then, then monday morning mum rings up at 7:30am, saying nanna is in hospital again! she hasnt been in for 2 years or so? i not sure. She has heart probs, and had pains 4:30pm sunday, told aunt, they did the tab under tongue, went away apparently, then again 12:30 at night, she didnt tell aunt and did the tab under tongue, then she got more at 3:30, woke up my aunt, and did the tab under tongue, and my aunt called the ambos. she is in there till thursday apparently, could be longer tho, she did abit of damage to her heart, only half her heart worked before it, only one kidney works, the list goes on. it will be 17 years on thursday since my grandpa passed away, and i thought she might have wanted to go on the same day? you know how people do that, but i went and saw her again today and she looks alot better than yesterday, so i dont think so now :) im so fucking glad tho! That would be all i need! i the closest with my nanna than any of her grand kids i think, oh except my cousin who is 12, but thats only cos she there all the time cos nanna looks after her, and she named after my grandpa etc. but apart from that, if she needs to get taken somewhere, its me she calls even if my cousin who lives not even 20 mtrs away is home i have to go, mind you i live on other side of town haha.
Because of nannas heart probs lately, has got me back into my mode, i have been slacking off, but now i am getting back into it :) I told her she HAS to live past 80 (she 79 and 7 months now) because i organising a party for her haha, she laughed and told me to go away :O
Anyways enough rambling, i have emails to read, a lunch to organise for thursday, and all that kinda stuff :)
Mel.!
Monday, October 22, 2007
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
Fill me up baby!!
I got my fill today! What a way to have a first fill, it nearly scared me off for good haha. Walk in there, "hows everything going? you able to eat normally now?" i said yes. "ok jump up on the bed, and i will put a fill in" ok. So up on the bed i get, he gets it all ready and inserts the needle, finds the port but the needle wouldnt go in it :S he keeps trying for a few mins "oh i will try a different needle" STAB WOUND TWO!! this one must have been finer, as OH MY GOD it stung like hell! but it did the job, i could feel the difference straight away, is that normal? lol
For tea i got some potato and gravy from KFC, with a tub of gravy aswell, mixed some up with most of gravy and i had no problems, slid down easy peasy :) No problems at all. Brad wants tuna and potato pie for tea tomorrow night, i think that should be fine for me, as its mushy and sloppy kinda, like a tuna mornay minus pasta, with mashed spuds on top :) easy to eat food :) I have to go back to surgeon on the 29th, so 13 days away, he said i might need another fill? :O there is 4 mls in there now, he said it can hold over 10, he put 2 in at time of op.
I am losing my voice! it is bugging me lots. Everyone i talk to laughs at me from it :( its not fair, and i am working for 4 days this week at show where i have to talk!! help!! anyone got any remedies? Atleast will fill in now, and not being hungry, i wont be tempted to eat show food whilst there? lol
Anyways only short blog tonight, i need a nap hardly slept lately :( brad did 13 hours today so he already in bed haha.
Mel.!
For tea i got some potato and gravy from KFC, with a tub of gravy aswell, mixed some up with most of gravy and i had no problems, slid down easy peasy :) No problems at all. Brad wants tuna and potato pie for tea tomorrow night, i think that should be fine for me, as its mushy and sloppy kinda, like a tuna mornay minus pasta, with mashed spuds on top :) easy to eat food :) I have to go back to surgeon on the 29th, so 13 days away, he said i might need another fill? :O there is 4 mls in there now, he said it can hold over 10, he put 2 in at time of op.
I am losing my voice! it is bugging me lots. Everyone i talk to laughs at me from it :( its not fair, and i am working for 4 days this week at show where i have to talk!! help!! anyone got any remedies? Atleast will fill in now, and not being hungry, i wont be tempted to eat show food whilst there? lol
Anyways only short blog tonight, i need a nap hardly slept lately :( brad did 13 hours today so he already in bed haha.
Mel.!
Saturday, October 13, 2007
Stress is no good!!
This week kind of got a little better, but yet again, it is a saturday night, and how have i spent my day you asked? Well, i got up about 8am, brad got up about 9 or so, we went to mums so she could take up his pants, we came home, i cooked some cocktail frankfurts for lunch. He dropped me off at mums at about 1ish or so, and i have spent the rest of the day there chilling with mum, and i have only just got home, and its 8:45. I only came home as dad is playing an army game so i couldnt use the pc there so i came here. So much fun! another saturday night i will be spending on my own. Its like the 4th now? ive honestly lost count. Its beyond the joke now its seriously pissing me off. Yes i have talked to him, told him i want to spend time together etc, "oh we can spend time together during the week" im like going clothes shopping for you, so you can have new clothes to wear out again isnt classed as spending time together. All we have been doing is fighting, i have been getting stress headaches, which makes me grumpier and GRRR!!
Now, about the eye doctor. My close up vision is the same, which is just a little bit wrong, but its my far away vision that is bad now, it was fine in 04, but now i need glasses for it :( i decided on getting multifocals, i am using my old frames, so it will be cheaper, and OMFG it is $358 for the lenses only!! WTF! out of that i get $120 back from my heath fund, plus i can claim another 50 or 75 in 60-90 days after paying for them! Do they think money grows on trees?
I dont know if i mentioned it in last blog, but i am going to again now :P i am working at the show here, its 4 days from 8-3 $13 an hour, cash in hand on the day, so that is going towards my glasses, and my fill which im getting on tuesday. Thats from thursday till sunday. It serving hot roast beef rolls that has been cooked on the spit, and cleaning the equipment. I dont know how i will cope with the smell, i think i will take chewy with me haha.
Food wise, tonight me and mum made canaloni, it had mince, garlic, basil, bread crumbs, egg in it, with tomatey sauce over it and cheese, was delish! i managed 2 of them, and my salad. I still havent had no problems with food, i havent weighed myself since starting the gym 2 weeks ago, we going monday, and then again tuesday before i go to surgeon for fill, so we can compare the scales lol. I need to lose this weight, my self esteem is so fucked up atm. one of my good mates just rang me, to go out tonight with her, she been drinking since 10am!! and i said nah i be right, i think i just have a quiet one at home. She was going to shout and all! whats the deal with that!
Anyways enough from me, will post again soon!
Mel.!
Now, about the eye doctor. My close up vision is the same, which is just a little bit wrong, but its my far away vision that is bad now, it was fine in 04, but now i need glasses for it :( i decided on getting multifocals, i am using my old frames, so it will be cheaper, and OMFG it is $358 for the lenses only!! WTF! out of that i get $120 back from my heath fund, plus i can claim another 50 or 75 in 60-90 days after paying for them! Do they think money grows on trees?
I dont know if i mentioned it in last blog, but i am going to again now :P i am working at the show here, its 4 days from 8-3 $13 an hour, cash in hand on the day, so that is going towards my glasses, and my fill which im getting on tuesday. Thats from thursday till sunday. It serving hot roast beef rolls that has been cooked on the spit, and cleaning the equipment. I dont know how i will cope with the smell, i think i will take chewy with me haha.
Food wise, tonight me and mum made canaloni, it had mince, garlic, basil, bread crumbs, egg in it, with tomatey sauce over it and cheese, was delish! i managed 2 of them, and my salad. I still havent had no problems with food, i havent weighed myself since starting the gym 2 weeks ago, we going monday, and then again tuesday before i go to surgeon for fill, so we can compare the scales lol. I need to lose this weight, my self esteem is so fucked up atm. one of my good mates just rang me, to go out tonight with her, she been drinking since 10am!! and i said nah i be right, i think i just have a quiet one at home. She was going to shout and all! whats the deal with that!
Anyways enough from me, will post again soon!
Mel.!
Monday, October 8, 2007
what a crap week!
This last week has been hell for me, everything has been going wrong, and its just getting to me. It started when brad decided to go to a mates for drinks and watch dvds, instead of coming to my cousins 21st with me and my family. The weekend before he went out clubbing, got home 8:30am the next day, i didnt mind that, that much, the bit that pissed me off is he has a habbit of turning his phone off, so i cant call him! GRRR! anyways the last week he has been a real pain in the ass, i reckon he doing it to see how i retaliate? like last night was almost the final straw i tell ya i was so close to walking out that door and not coming back!
In result to this, i have either been eating heaps, or not eating at all, i hardly touched my tea last night, i wasnt in the mood for food, its still sitting on the table as i asked him if he wanted it as was curried snags, his fave he said ok. And i still feel as tho i have put on! i will weigh myself at the gym today.
My eyes have been playing up, yes i have glasses but its mainly for reading, and pc when i get headaches really, but lately i cant seem to focus in on stuff was at the pub for lunch with mum yesterday and i couldnt even read the board not even 5 meters away :( i just couldnt focus, mum said it is prob the stress doing it? anyways i did have an appt for tomorrow at 9am, but i rang up and changed it to today at 3pm, whilst we in there we will go shopping aswell :)
Ok back to rebeccas 21st :P i had a great night, she put on the invite "drinks at bar prices" and i was talking to my other cousins girlfriend and saying how tight it is etc, all they doing is having a dj, and hiring the hall, which they prob got for free as becs brother plays footy there, and they made all the finger food. I said they could atleast have a tab! haha. We rock up there, and my uncle gave us a blue wrist band, im like whats this for? he goes oh, family gets free drinks! i said oh cool! when vicki (cousins g/f) rocked up, i ran over showed her my band and we both cracked up laughing as they must have realised it was abit cheap? :P I mean who has a 21st and you buy your own grog? So we took advantage of it :P i made sure we got 1 for the road on way home aswell haha! it was the first time i have drank in 2 years, i had no brad there to piss me off, so i had fun :)
Everytime i went to get something to eat, as we didnt have tea before we went, and i knew i had to eat, my nanna would look at me and go "put it down! your not meant to be eating that!!" i mean it was a mini quiche!! haha, vicki heard her so she went and got me one later on and i hid from nanna haha! i should say the same thing to her when she eats tomatoes and that cos of her gout! good idea! I picked up a sandwich triangle, it had chicken, lettuce and avacado on it, and she gave me that look again, i said NANNA!! SHUSH!! haha everyone looked at me!
ummm what else has been happening? ive been feeling crap during the week, getting the runs every few days, had to cancel gym yesterday cos of it :( i think that is stress related aswell. He seems to think there is nothing wrong with ditching our plans and going out with mates, i REALLY wanted to go to the zoo this weekend, i havent been since i was a kid, but his reply "oh i will see what i have planned!" i dont mind honestly, if he wants to go out, he can, i will spend time with mum, i seem to have more fun with her lately :( She is like my best friend :)
Anyways enough rambling on, i gotta get dressed, i just had shower, then i realised im going to the gym? haha will have another one later aswell :) Will post again soon.
Mel.!
In result to this, i have either been eating heaps, or not eating at all, i hardly touched my tea last night, i wasnt in the mood for food, its still sitting on the table as i asked him if he wanted it as was curried snags, his fave he said ok. And i still feel as tho i have put on! i will weigh myself at the gym today.
My eyes have been playing up, yes i have glasses but its mainly for reading, and pc when i get headaches really, but lately i cant seem to focus in on stuff was at the pub for lunch with mum yesterday and i couldnt even read the board not even 5 meters away :( i just couldnt focus, mum said it is prob the stress doing it? anyways i did have an appt for tomorrow at 9am, but i rang up and changed it to today at 3pm, whilst we in there we will go shopping aswell :)
Ok back to rebeccas 21st :P i had a great night, she put on the invite "drinks at bar prices" and i was talking to my other cousins girlfriend and saying how tight it is etc, all they doing is having a dj, and hiring the hall, which they prob got for free as becs brother plays footy there, and they made all the finger food. I said they could atleast have a tab! haha. We rock up there, and my uncle gave us a blue wrist band, im like whats this for? he goes oh, family gets free drinks! i said oh cool! when vicki (cousins g/f) rocked up, i ran over showed her my band and we both cracked up laughing as they must have realised it was abit cheap? :P I mean who has a 21st and you buy your own grog? So we took advantage of it :P i made sure we got 1 for the road on way home aswell haha! it was the first time i have drank in 2 years, i had no brad there to piss me off, so i had fun :)
Everytime i went to get something to eat, as we didnt have tea before we went, and i knew i had to eat, my nanna would look at me and go "put it down! your not meant to be eating that!!" i mean it was a mini quiche!! haha, vicki heard her so she went and got me one later on and i hid from nanna haha! i should say the same thing to her when she eats tomatoes and that cos of her gout! good idea! I picked up a sandwich triangle, it had chicken, lettuce and avacado on it, and she gave me that look again, i said NANNA!! SHUSH!! haha everyone looked at me!
ummm what else has been happening? ive been feeling crap during the week, getting the runs every few days, had to cancel gym yesterday cos of it :( i think that is stress related aswell. He seems to think there is nothing wrong with ditching our plans and going out with mates, i REALLY wanted to go to the zoo this weekend, i havent been since i was a kid, but his reply "oh i will see what i have planned!" i dont mind honestly, if he wants to go out, he can, i will spend time with mum, i seem to have more fun with her lately :( She is like my best friend :)
Anyways enough rambling on, i gotta get dressed, i just had shower, then i realised im going to the gym? haha will have another one later aswell :) Will post again soon.
Mel.!
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
I honestly thought i was going to die!!
I had another gym appt today, and damn did she work us!! at one stage i felt like collapsing i was that buggered haha! she kept going to me "c'mon melissa, i know you can do heavier than that!!" i was doing 50 kilos on the leg press one!! OMG!! it was abit easy tho so i think i go down a notch next time haha, looks like all them years (10 infact) of marching gave me strong legs? :P mum was laughing at me aswell, as i was marching on spot at several stations, and she goes "can tell you did years of marching, look how your doing that, knees are coming up straight (as in so a straight line when leg lifted up), toes pointed down etc! its been like 7 years or so since i have done it aswell haha, but when i lose weight i wanna go back. I LOVE the dance side more than the actual drill bit.
Our next appt at gym is friday at 12, thats the next time we could get in that suits both me and mum but thats fine, thats our last one we have to book in for then can just go whenever after that. I really like it tho as its small, and friendly, probably said it before but it is awesome!! haha
We may be going out for tea tonight, mum wants to, i cant be bothered cooking, and brad wants to aswell, i dont know what i feel like tho haha will go to the pub down the road tho, they have awesome meals at cheap prices. $12 for a steak! and its an awesome steak best one i have had for AGES and sooooo tender and juicy MMMMM might have that actually :P
I have nannas heart excercise place with her tomorrow, and im not going to be getting up and helping her, my aunty can haha im too sore today from the gym today. She wants to go to the village (shopping centre) after it to buy some new black pants, cos its my cousins 21st today, and her party is saturday night and she wants some for there apparently. Brad has already told me he not coming to the party,im shitting with him about it, as he is never going to partys that involve that family lately, i dont blame him tho, but i would appreaciate it if he could come. They have a tendancy of always putting my uncles (married in) family first, over nannas family etc, they are italian, so if nanna is sitting there, and my aunt asked if she wants soup once, nanna said yeah ok, then uncles dad walked in, aunty walked off, got him seated etc, got him some soup and forgot about nanna! i mean its her own mother!! my aunt who lives with nanna had to do it! ok enough rambling there :P
Brad has just put hot water in the sink hinting i have dishes to do haha, so thats it for me :P Will blog tomorrow after nannas appts.
Mel.!
Our next appt at gym is friday at 12, thats the next time we could get in that suits both me and mum but thats fine, thats our last one we have to book in for then can just go whenever after that. I really like it tho as its small, and friendly, probably said it before but it is awesome!! haha
We may be going out for tea tonight, mum wants to, i cant be bothered cooking, and brad wants to aswell, i dont know what i feel like tho haha will go to the pub down the road tho, they have awesome meals at cheap prices. $12 for a steak! and its an awesome steak best one i have had for AGES and sooooo tender and juicy MMMMM might have that actually :P
I have nannas heart excercise place with her tomorrow, and im not going to be getting up and helping her, my aunty can haha im too sore today from the gym today. She wants to go to the village (shopping centre) after it to buy some new black pants, cos its my cousins 21st today, and her party is saturday night and she wants some for there apparently. Brad has already told me he not coming to the party,im shitting with him about it, as he is never going to partys that involve that family lately, i dont blame him tho, but i would appreaciate it if he could come. They have a tendancy of always putting my uncles (married in) family first, over nannas family etc, they are italian, so if nanna is sitting there, and my aunt asked if she wants soup once, nanna said yeah ok, then uncles dad walked in, aunty walked off, got him seated etc, got him some soup and forgot about nanna! i mean its her own mother!! my aunt who lives with nanna had to do it! ok enough rambling there :P
Brad has just put hot water in the sink hinting i have dishes to do haha, so thats it for me :P Will blog tomorrow after nannas appts.
Mel.!
Monday, October 1, 2007
Happy Mel :)
I started gym today!! its awesome there, i love it haha! we only did the circuit once, as was first time, but we are booked in for wednesday at 10:30am, to get taken around again. We got weighed and measured today, i have still only lost about 8 kilos so far, my weight loss has slowed down alot!! I have 2 1/2 weeks till i get my fill aswell!! Man im not liking this stage, im thinknig of bringing fill forward.
Saturday night i got like an hours sleep, brad went out with mates from work to celebrate geelong winning the grand final, he got home 8:30 am the next morning, I will admit, i actually rang the ED worried about him (hell with geelongs bashing history lately wouldnt you? haha) but they said no one by that name had been there that night, the little terd wasnt answering his phone, he is not a going out person, he is a quiet kinda person you know what i mean? thats why i was worried :( he gets home and bugs me soo much i walk out and go to mums! i was too tired for his rubbish, and he wouldnt leave me alone when i tried to sleep so i went out :) he is still sucking up now, im loving it haha he knows i like when people play with my hair, so came up yesterday and goes "oh look how long your hair getting, its going curly and i like it, you going to keep growing it?" i said yes, and thats all i said haha giving him the silent treatment :P
I had steak and veg for tea, omg was so yummy! can you tell im addicted to steak? i had no sauce on it tonight and had no problems at all. i havent yet had a "stuck" moment, and people who have been done after me, no fills etc have told me they have had a few. im glad tho haha i dont want that pain.
Today at the gym, i was worrying about getting on the scales for that ERROR message cos im too heavy, i got on and the little o's went around im thinking "oh shit!" but then a weight came up i looked at mum and smiled cos she knew my worry haha. Then she gets on them, mind you my mum is tiny, well i think she is, she a size 14-16 if even that but she is short haha, she hasdnt hoped on scales for 12 months or more and was shocked she was around same weight as back then!
Anyways im off to look in freezer to see what i feel like cooking for tea tomorrow night, im thinking stew? but its going to be warm, so maybe not :(
Mel.!
Saturday night i got like an hours sleep, brad went out with mates from work to celebrate geelong winning the grand final, he got home 8:30 am the next morning, I will admit, i actually rang the ED worried about him (hell with geelongs bashing history lately wouldnt you? haha) but they said no one by that name had been there that night, the little terd wasnt answering his phone, he is not a going out person, he is a quiet kinda person you know what i mean? thats why i was worried :( he gets home and bugs me soo much i walk out and go to mums! i was too tired for his rubbish, and he wouldnt leave me alone when i tried to sleep so i went out :) he is still sucking up now, im loving it haha he knows i like when people play with my hair, so came up yesterday and goes "oh look how long your hair getting, its going curly and i like it, you going to keep growing it?" i said yes, and thats all i said haha giving him the silent treatment :P
I had steak and veg for tea, omg was so yummy! can you tell im addicted to steak? i had no sauce on it tonight and had no problems at all. i havent yet had a "stuck" moment, and people who have been done after me, no fills etc have told me they have had a few. im glad tho haha i dont want that pain.
Today at the gym, i was worrying about getting on the scales for that ERROR message cos im too heavy, i got on and the little o's went around im thinking "oh shit!" but then a weight came up i looked at mum and smiled cos she knew my worry haha. Then she gets on them, mind you my mum is tiny, well i think she is, she a size 14-16 if even that but she is short haha, she hasdnt hoped on scales for 12 months or more and was shocked she was around same weight as back then!
Anyways im off to look in freezer to see what i feel like cooking for tea tomorrow night, im thinking stew? but its going to be warm, so maybe not :(
Mel.!
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