Stress is no good!!

This week kind of got a little better, but yet again, it is a saturday night, and how have i spent my day you asked? Well, i got up about 8am, brad got up about 9 or so, we went to mums so she could take up his pants, we came home, i cooked some cocktail frankfurts for lunch. He dropped me off at mums at about 1ish or so, and i have spent the rest of the day there chilling with mum, and i have only just got home, and its 8:45. I only came home as dad is playing an army game so i couldnt use the pc there so i came here. So much fun! another saturday night i will be spending on my own. Its like the 4th now? ive honestly lost count. Its beyond the joke now its seriously pissing me off. Yes i have talked to him, told him i want to spend time together etc, "oh we can spend time together during the week" im like going clothes shopping for you, so you can have new clothes to wear out again isnt classed as spending time together. All we have been doing is fighting, i have been getting stress headaches, which makes me grumpier and GRRR!!

Now, about the eye doctor. My close up vision is the same, which is just a little bit wrong, but its my far away vision that is bad now, it was fine in 04, but now i need glasses for it :( i decided on getting multifocals, i am using my old frames, so it will be cheaper, and OMFG it is $358 for the lenses only!! WTF! out of that i get $120 back from my heath fund, plus i can claim another 50 or 75 in 60-90 days after paying for them! Do they think money grows on trees?

I dont know if i mentioned it in last blog, but i am going to again now :P i am working at the show here, its 4 days from 8-3 $13 an hour, cash in hand on the day, so that is going towards my glasses, and my fill which im getting on tuesday. Thats from thursday till sunday. It serving hot roast beef rolls that has been cooked on the spit, and cleaning the equipment. I dont know how i will cope with the smell, i think i will take chewy with me haha.

Food wise, tonight me and mum made canaloni, it had mince, garlic, basil, bread crumbs, egg in it, with tomatey sauce over it and cheese, was delish! i managed 2 of them, and my salad. I still havent had no problems with food, i havent weighed myself since starting the gym 2 weeks ago, we going monday, and then again tuesday before i go to surgeon for fill, so we can compare the scales lol. I need to lose this weight, my self esteem is so fucked up atm. one of my good mates just rang me, to go out tonight with her, she been drinking since 10am!! and i said nah i be right, i think i just have a quiet one at home. She was going to shout and all! whats the deal with that!

Anyways enough from me, will post again soon!

Mel.!