NYE ... oh what a night!

Nothing much has really happened since my last blog, so i will tell you about how last night was :)

I went to kellys about 1:30ish, had to drive around in the 42 degree heat bloody putting invites in peoples letterboxes for her jewelery party she having soon. i wasnt happy as i was getting out as she was driving. Yet she on l's and left car running :S if cops caught her she would have got in trouble lol

I had tea at her place, we had flat head tails and chips, i had about 5 shoe string chips, and 2 flat head tails, they were pretty small aswell. I had a midori drink to whilst there just so i wasnt completly sober by time i went to town haha, it did nothing but i started :P Got ready and went to town, i am NEVER showering at her place again! she is short, she has taken a pic of us last night so you will see the difference when i post it :P anyways i had shower after her and i seriously had to uhh how would i explain it, like bend and squat down enough so i could wash my hair the head was that low! it came to my shoulders when i was standing up :S i didnt want to move it cos i remember her telling me once before it falls off sometimes haha! That plus its SHINY glass shower screen, and someone who is not completly comfortable with their body yet, was all i saw was my naked body!

We get to town, go into the event, met megan my best mate, her sister and their friend. Then megan introduces us to her cousins and one of their wives. Susan (the wife) was nice as, she is 27 and i was talknig to her all night, dancing with her etc, when we needed more drinks, she got the guys to go get them, they kept brining crap over like breezers (yuck i reckon) so i ended up getting me own haha. Evermore were the main band, they came on about 11:30pm, and thats when the dance floor got crowded as, i mean couldnt move crowded, we were up front so i got kel and we went and sat on a step near by and listened to the music and talked and drank, was more fun :P 11:56 we went back to the crowd, stood near susan as megan was too far in the crowd and i wasnt risking it, i didnt want to be near no guys for a midnight kiss so we stayed away haha.

Now here is the bit that made us leave there about 12:20 pm... Earlier on in the night, one of megans cousins, i dont remember his name, he went to get us drinks, but he goes to megz "if i get them a drink, it means i get to root them both tonight" meaning me and kel, when i found out when he came back with them im like nah sorry, not gonna happen mate! Kel was the same, he was yucky, and old, i dont know how old really but he was older than me :P about 30? haha and i wasnt there to pick up, and i didnt want to. As the night went on, he was getting more drunk, and more flirty, i mean taking ice out of his cup and putting down my top wanting to retrieve it etc, i told him to fuck off, megan talked to him about that bit :) then we were dancing, he comes up and starts dancing with us, touching my ass, all that shit, i moved away and megan stood in between us to stop it. In the end me and kel had enough and thats another reason we went and sat down and talked. I asked her if she REALLY wanted to go out after it, if he is going to be there, as i didnt really want to, as i dont trust him, anything could happen. She agreed, we rang mum, and she got up about 12:30 by time she got there.

I got home, feeling really faint, went to bed and slept! such a great end to the night hey :P well atleast i was in my bed and not his, so thats even better :) What i think made him think he could get with me is, i was with his cousin (megans cousin aswell i think its his cousin i dont know) and he would have known that, this was before brad, so about 5 years ago? I still get messages from ricky to go out there but pfft! im over that aswell haha males can go jump in the creek at the moment! im over it all :P

Thats it from me now, will write again soon :)

Mel.!

Mighty Mel!!

It has been awhile since i last posted, so here is a run down on everything thats been happening.

Christmas day was a great day, in every way especially food wise, i didnt eat alot, i managed to keep my food down, every meal aswell, so i am rather pleased with that. I had a few drinks for tea at nannas with everyone else, was fun :) What did i get you asked? an AWESOME necklace of my best mate! i swear she is a mind reader as i had been hunting for a necklace like that for nye, it sits just above boobs bit when its on the shortest link, has the extension bit at the back, is silver and its a locket with 3 little bits of chain that have a purple gem on the bottom of each one. I have decided im gonna put a photo of nanna and grandpa in there, as ive been getting older i have been missing my grandpa ALOT! its been 17 years since he died, and he didnt get to see us grow up :( i also got a bag from her with bath stuff in it which smells pretty :P Off james i got a make up case with bronzer, mascara, lip gloss and eye liner in it, mum i got clothes, and still shopping for stuff from mum as she didnt have time to shop :P Kel got me hair stuff, like shampoo and conditioner, leave in conditioner, clips etc as thats what i wanted haha and i got money :P

Boxing day was a nightmare, i couldnt keep nothing down! i spent most of my time in the loo spewing than anywhere else i reckon. i just felt soo tight, i was even too scared to eat soup for some reason, that happen to anyone else? I chewed and chewed and chewed and it still happened, my jaw was sore from chewing so much!

Yesterday was good food wise, i was going to do liquids only, but i had no breakfast i know thats bad, i had a peice of cooked tuna and avacado sushi for lunch, and for tea i had a small tin of braised steak and onions and had no problems! i went shopping yesterday, didnt buy nothing tho, im not in a clothes buying mood lately only what i really need to buy i will.

We rang the woman who did the undercover wear partys today, as we STILL havent got the stuff, she told us she has paid etc, i told mum she lying and to ring the office direct, they said it hasnt been paid, so i saw cheryl as she put in on our order aswell, and she said naht cancel it, im over it! so are we haha so i rang the office back, canceled it and her husband is taking the money into work tomorrow cos mum and cheryl work there aswell. If he dont take it in there, i know where she lives! im not going to be stuffed around no more! im over it already! haha

Its too hot to blog today, im melting away here, the lounge room calls me where the fan is :P

Mel.!

Shopping = Evil!

Man i am exhausted, i went shopping with mum and her friend today, i think it was seriously for 6 hours or more? NEVER AGAIN!! i didnt have no money so i was spending mums haha. "mum, i have only got james them chocs under the tree, you think i should get him something else?" so she bought "the ultimate hot chocolate kit" haha he will love it! she payed ofcourse :P I got some shoes for NYE aswell, they are not flats, but not heels, you know what i mean, and have umm jewels on the top, and look pretty haha. Now i just need to figure out what im doing for pants :)

Food wise, all has been good, im going to start doing the tony fergurson shakes i have left here, for breakfast again, im not really eating much for breakfast, if anything at all as i just cant get anything down. Some days i can, some days i cant, so if i do this i should be ok. I had half a wrap today from muffin break, i had to open it and pick at it as couldnt eat it without pains and mum starting picking at it aswell as got full haha. We had chilli con carne burritos for tea, i absolutly love them!

I dying my hair again tomorrow, i forget what colour haha, its in the kitchen too far to go look at it, i doing mums aswell, i have been telling her for like 3 years to die her hair again, and she hasnt, and i have finally got her to do it! YAY!! victory!! I told her i straightening her hair for xmas day aswell, she has like ringlet curls, and when its about to rain, OMG you can tell by her hair, its our weather predicter haha! so will be interesting straight, i have never seen it straight!

Thats it from me, im knackered, i really need sleep!

Mel.!

I got a top!!!!

The sling came off today, now i am looking for someone willing to massage my back! Oh my fucking god i am stiff in my shoulder blade area, im thinking of having a radox bath, but i havent had a bath for years and will prob get stuck in there haha!

So i got my NYE tickets today, i finally found a top, and mum bought it, which is a bonus :P I ended up getting one from target, it is actually nice!! Its black, and has like umm jewels things just under boob area? i will take a pic when i figure out what im wearing with it, and post it :P Im so glad i found a top tho, as i so didnt want to wear a dress :P

Food wise, i had a 6 inch subway for lunch, it took me like 20 mins to eat it, and it had avacado on it MMMMMM i love avacado can you tell? i could live on the stuff! Then i screwed up for tea, and had a cheeseburger :( I was only one home, and nothing to cook here so went and got one, and im full. i didnt eat the bread tho, only the meat, and to be honest it made me feel sick! It was that fatty!

I am meant to be doing dishes, and cleaning off the kitchen table haha, but i havent done nothing yet, and mum could ring any time between now and 11 and i watching gordon ramsay on foxtel at 9:30 haha. I have to take nanna to the doctors tomorrow, as you are meant to go to doctors a week after going into hospital apparently, so gotta be at her place by 10:30 am, she never lets me sleep in!

Thats it for now, i might take kel for another driving lesson tomorrow somewhere nice and take some pics :P Hence that word MIGHT haha!

Mel!

Transformations!!!

I have been real anti social lately, only reason being is i dont want to go outside with that hideous sling on! i mean everytime i go out i get atleast 10 or more people ask me "awwww what have you done to your arm?" i tell them about it and they think its a great idea! Personally, im over it haha! I had my shower at 5pm tonight, and got straight into pjs :P im not going anywhere tonight haha!

I cut all my hair off today! it is short short! the back i can hardly grab at its that short, the front is about eye level? i reckon it looks awesome! but not at the moment it dont cos its curly etc and totally annoying haha! They put that much wax in there, i can still feel it in my hair now after my shower and i washed hair twice! looks like a shower in morning before i go out is the key :P

Food wise, i had no breakfast, a habit i have not beaten yet, but i am aiming for it to be broke by my birthday (early feb :P) lunch i had lambs fry and bacon, and some chips, and mum had to cut the lambs fry up for me, whole one arm episode going on still. I felt i was lacking iron so i shouted mum to pub for lunch so i can have lambs fry and bacon haha! I love the stuff! but it was cut too thin, and didnt have as much taste! GRRR! Tea i had left over nasi goreng from last night, had a spewage episode aswell, wasnt good!

Apart from all that, not much really has been happening, im going to town on wednesday to go shopping for a top or dress, i have decided if i wear a dress im getting a spray tan, as i dont want my fluro white legs to glow all night, and i will be wearing heels (someone help me here!!) if i wear pants and a nice top, ibe wearing flats and no tan, as wont see it :P

Ok, thats if from me, Will try to post again tomorrow!

Mel.!

What have i got myself into!! haha

I entered a comp on the net, to win NYE tickets. Well i got the phone call today, this is how it went....

"hi is this melissa?"
"yeah"
"hi, its Gina from Krock, how would you like your arm plastered for a week?"
"yeah, it would be alright, i could manage i reckon"
"great, that was easy, be at the doctors in town (they did name it) at 12:45pm tomorrow, and we will meet you there, if you last the week, you get a double pass to New year on the waterfront!"
"thanks!"

So, tomorrow i am to have my right arm set in plaster for a week, to win tickets for NYE haha, my mate is loving me for it, as i told her if i get accepted i will take her. She is coming to watch it, then i look at their website, and see they will be posting pictures on there! GREAT! i hate pictures! Anyways i will post them on here if i like them :P

Now here is the good bit, *finds bit of paper* I finally went back to the gym today, got weighed and measured and .....

I have lost 3.8 kilos since October i think it is, and i have lost 6.5 cms all over. 1.5 from arms, 1.5 from bust 3 from waist, 1.5 from hips, and i gained 1 on my calves. I am so excited by that!!! YAY!!

Food wise, i struggled abit today, i had some roast chook, and it didnt agree with me, but then i had some later on in the day and i was fine, i hate how that happens. We had sausages for tea, was only me and my brother here, and he went and bought them. Cracked pepper ones, i had one, thats it, they were soo fatty i could taste the fat, I cooked them on the george foreman and HEAPS of fat came outta them, but was still heaps in them aswell! Ewww!

I have my Gym's "Xmas party" tomorrow night, i know there wont be a work out involved, its just like fun and games apparently. And here i am going to be rocking up with my arm in plaster! great! haha i gotta go there during day, to purchase some $5 for 5 day things as xmas presents, so will let them know then, shouldnt be a problem. My only problem about the cast will be how will i go to gym? i will have to go outdoors like walks, stairs etc, and how do i drive? I gotta take nanna to her heart specalist on monday, but then mum can drive us there.

Nanna is back in hospital, went in tuesday morning about 4:30am, apparently her blood is too thick, and has caused more damage to her heart. I am making sure i go to heart specalist on monday, to find out how much more damage it can take, it has had alot lately, and i honestly think she dont have that much longer left with us, maybe 2 years? It makes me sad as i look up to my nanna, she is always there for me, im always taking her to her appts, i know pratically everything about her, im like the closest out of all the grand kids, and there is alot trust me haha. She will be 80 next year, so she has had a good run :)

Anyways, i gonna go back to dress looking :P find one that will fit my boobs in it!!

Mel.!

I am tired as tired can get!

I am soo tired! I went out friday night, dont know what time we got home, cant remember haha, there was me, kelly, rebecca and megan. Kel won tickets off the radio to their "xmas party" was a great night, i dont drink, i dont dance and i did both! haha! i took $50, came home with $25 plus coins and had about 9-10 drinks?? how i managed that i dont know!

Yes i danced, and i think i danced off about 10 kilos! came home, me and bec (she my cousin) slept in my bed, as i couldnt be bothered making room for the camp stretcher, and honestly, she takes up more of the bed than brad ever did! i was pratically on the floor! James was at work, gets home about 7:30am or so, walks in the bedroom "bubba you awake? bubba wake up!" i told him where to go, and went back to sleep, next thing i hear is "poor rebecca having to sit up all on her own whilst melissa sleeps" if he hadnt of came in here and woke us, she would have still been asleep! Then he did the same thing sunday morning when it was just me here! I told him pay back is a bitch!

I was going to go to the gym today, but i had no time, left geelong 9am, got back 3:30 or so, and then had to have shower and go to town. *sighs* i will be going tomorrow tho, and booking in for a weigh in and measurement. Im going to dads weight loss place thursday morning to get weighed there 2. food wise, i have had no problems, oh friday night i had some of them "dippers" from maccas for tea, i had 2 and OH MY FUCKING GOD they came back up and it was the worst yet!

Thats enough from me, im going to lounge room away from james who wont shut up! GRRR! anyone want him? 27 nearly 28 yr old male, who still lives at home, and is annoying as anything :P

Mel.!

Its been a good day so far :)

What a day today!! lol all good things have been happening, and it is only 11:24am!!

I took kel, one of my best friends to look at a car, we took it to show her dad, he didnt know we went to look at it, haha was funny as. he said looks ok etc, but now she gone to look at another one at her cousins car yard. Then we both tried to win tickets from radio station for their xmas party tomorrow night, we were both ringing and she gets through! Was funny as, she was soooo excited haha! i was cracking up laughing, and trying to drive at same time! So thats tomorrow night, she has 4 tickets. We taking suit cases aswell, cos you can win a trip away, and leave straight from there, mystery destination! *fingers crossed*

I get a phone call when picking dad up from his weight loss place, i have a job interview for a place i applied for yesterday, its event staff, doing bar work, waitressing, dishes etc. they have 6 positions, so i hope i have a good chance. And today of all days when its hot, to have a interview and be in them clothes!! *sighs*

Weight loss wise, all is going good, i havent weighed myself in like 3 weeks? i cant remember but, i can notice it in clothes. I am fitting into more old clothes now aswell. Im glad i saved them now :)

I just entered some comp on the net, through radio station again, where you can win tickets for New years eve, they have a thing down on the beach (new year on the waterfront) and evermore are playing there etc, my best friend megan is going, its like $145 for tickets plus booking fee, but you need to be formal dressed, anyways this comp, they choose 6 people to ahve their right arm in plaster for a week, and you have to tell them in 25 words or less why you should be picked i put "i just got out of a 4 year relationship, have not NYE plans, and I really need a night of enjoyment!" hope i get picked, i told kel to apply cos she is left handed haha so wont matter to her :P

I have been really energetic today, its a first, havent been like this for AGES! Cant wait for James to get home hahaha! man am i going to get him back for annoying me all the time since i moved back in here.

Mel.!

Officially Single!

I was smsing brad yesterday, had to talk to him about something, i dont know what right now as i have pushed it out of my mind. Anyways, i said to him "see once again, your friends or caz is more important, am moving back into unit, why should i be kicked out because you are fucking someone else?" and he sent back ... "im seeing someone else not caz and we not together" I got up, got shoes on, got mum to come with me to the unit and i got my stuff there and then. Took my double bed, gave him the single we had here, only because we had no where to put it and saves taking up our space, took al my clothes etc the washing machine that was inside, he can have the one thats outside and dirty inside :)

I am going back today for my plates, sauscepans etc. Fuck him, he wants to cheat behind my back, he will regret it! i almost smashed his computer monitor last night, then picked up his laptop to throw when he wouldnt tell me the name, lucky mum was there to take it off me haha!

So yes, apparently it has been since grand final night, that would explain the condom in his pocket that weekend? and why now he is going out from friday arvo to late sunday night? But honestly i still think this is a lie and a exscuse to hurt me. I dont care, im over him, i know i can do alot better!

Apart from that, i am doing ok. I can eat toast or bread some days, but then try the next day for breakfast or something and it gets stuck!! GRRR! I have been cooking alot since being here, mum likes it lol.

I have to clean this room today, has heaps of james's stuff in here which he can get out. Oh, and brad said to me last night that he wants the laptop and the tv back, im going to tell him no, he gave them to me, im keeping them :)

Well thats enough for now, its 7:37am, i couldnt sleep so thought i would blog!

Mel.!

I am confused!

MALES! why were they even bloody invented!! one day everything is normal, the next its not, the next its normal again :S What the!! I dont know what is going on with me and brad, i have given him till the new year to sort himself out, deicde what he REALLY wants and go from there.

I died my hair today, like a dark brown colour it was blondy up top (natural) with red down bottom, and i had a job interview today so i died it so it looks decent haha. It was at where brad works, i think i mentioned it last time? i think i went ok, i dont know to be honest i hate interviews with a passion.

I need to send off for my passport soon, i need to get a job ASAP to save money for my holiday which i so badly need. I got my Working with children card yesterday, its a volunteer one, thats ok for now, since i dont have a job, nor experience really so all is peachy.

Weight wise, i didnt get weighed today, im over dads weight loss place, they annoy me at the moment haha, but i still have my black pants on, mum has already darted them once, and now she has to like sew down the legs hahah! they are that big and baggy look like a homey!! hahaha! I can seriously walk like 5 steps and they are around my ankle, maybe even less amount of steps! its shocking! everywhere i have been today i have to hold them up! one thing i am NOT happy about is, yes i am loosing weight, but its not coming off my tits. and i want it to, i want them to go down aswell :( bloody can tell a male invented the females! GRRR! Like all the tops out now, whats with them? males invent them aswell? i mean HELLO!!!! cleavage!!! i hate it, i dont like parading my tits around for everyone to see!

Thats about all for tonight, oh me and mum went and put a bike on layby each today :) they look fun haha! YAY!! *insert excitement here*

Mel.!

Seems i spoke too soon!

It is officially over between Brad and I. I went over there today to see him, to see what is going on etc, as a mate has asked me to move out with her after our holiday in march. His reply was "i want to be on my own" i said fine, fuck ya then! and walked out :) I will be going there tomorrow to get my clothes and start packing things up like plates etc and will pick up bed etc on saturday :) I think its fair the way im doing it, i taking the washing machine that is inside (there is one in carport) and the bed which mum payed for, and am leaving him the little freezer, dryer and microwave. all of which we went halves in. I dont want them i have no room to store them.

Weight loss wise, i have been slack with the gym, i seriously havent been for like 5 weeks? but tomorrow i AM going, i will make sure i do! i have to. i want to prove to everyone i can do this, and im not weak and chicken shit! I am single, i am going to be skinny, and enjoy my life :) I had some chicken breast for tea tonight, along with some cauliflower bake the chicken shop makes and damn im full! james (brother) ate some of the meat 2 and still have heaps left! lol

I have a job interview on thursday, at 3pm, at steggles/bartter, chicken place. Brad works there but in the factory bit, this is for the office bit, as a "customer service officer" just ringing their customers like safeway and coles to confirm orders. i made it past the phone interview so im happy with that, mum going to tip my hair, going to try on my black pants that are at the unit still if they dont fit she will buy me some more lol

My weakness this week is them kinder bueno white choc things omg they are yum i bought one before when i went to safeway :( but i havent eaten it yet, i might give it to james when he gets home, i will see :P

Anyways thats enough from me,

Mel.!

undercover wear party's anonymous!

Man i am honestly getting slack at this hey! im sorry!!!

in the last week not much has happened, been job hunting, thinking if i want to go back to VISY, where mum works, the only reason i would is for the money, i mean it stinks there, it gets SOOOO hot in there on hot days, but can do 2 days and bring home about $400 i think mum said and i really need to save for my holiday in march :)

Im still at mums, me and brad are getting along alot better, although he went out friday night and STILL out i believe, i only know cos i cooked apple and rhubarb on friday, rang him to tell him i made him some and he said he will come and eat it etc and hasnt yet! i smsed him yesterday telling him to vote, incase he forgot he said ok, so if he hasnt and gets fined its his own fault :P

Weight loss wise, its going good i got weighed on thursday and i have lost 14.1 kilos! YAY!! lightest i have been since i dont know when, i really want to be like near 20 by xmas, so im working hard on that :P The lady next door told me she can see im losing weight cos my boobs stick out more haha! then her son, who is about 21 or 22 said the same thing!! i was like ADAM!! could have slapped him :P

The jean shorts mum bought me for the shopping trip 3 weeks ago and falling down :( she doing sewing today taking in my other jeans, which i might just leave like that actually cos i then know what i was like, if i alter them they will be smaller, i might just go buy a new pair of jeans today :P but they the most comfy pair :( she taking in some of my tops aswell haha im sick of them blowing up cos they that big when its windy, i have actually thought of putting like fishing weights in the bottom of the hems!

i have been to 2 undercover wear partys in 3 weeks, same person had them tho lol, i got some gym pants, a sleeveless hoodie which i LOVE at the first one, that was about $90 or so, then yesterday i got a singlet top and then a gym type singlet top that goes under hoodie and with gym pants :P they were about $50 for the both of them! they a size 20, currently my shorts are a 24 but too big now, and my tops are the same, so no doubt wont be long till i get there :P oh and mum got a size 18 gym singlet :P for when i get down to it she will give it to me btu she will wear it aswell haha. she has been doing that alot lately, like buying size 16-18 for when i get down there, even if they a little too big for her :S she crazy haha!

Anyways i going, we going to market cos i want some trackie pants and all that :P

Mel.!

Jobs jobs jobs!

I have only had a few stuck moments lately, and i dont know if my spewages is like everyone elses but i feel like a mother bird regurgitating its food for their child! its not like a proper spew like when you sick? is that how everyone else happens aswell? I had some chicken breast for lunch today at the pub (parmy) and OMG it got stuck, mum knew by me going to loo what was wrong, and once it was up it was fine and it didnt happen again. For tea i had left over noodles from last night.

I have an appt at the blood bank tomorrow at 9:30 am i think it is, me and mum both going in, i going to get them to do an iron test thing first, as before being banded i had my low iron moments, and as i work myself up for it (i hate needles) and they say "sorry we will have to make another time for you" i get upset, and just walk outside and tears come :( i dont want that to happen tomorrow so i will get in early haha.

I have a job interview tomorrow night at 6pm for a call centre, i honestly dont want to do it but i need the money, its making appts for the sales team to go out there, its some education thing i dont know. I have a "talk" on saturday morning aswell, for the tourist train thing down the beach in town, that would be awesome! imagine all the people you would meet! i really want that one, the guy wants someone who can be around for 3 years or more, as permant part time, i said thats fine by me! a job is a job at the moment!

Brad and I are going good, we talking more, he rang me today to see if i going to safeway cos he needed plastic cups for work tomorrow some party there and he always takes drinks and cups so i got them, took them over and had no problems :P All is good as far as im concerned, im liking living at mums cos im not spending as much money as i was at the unit haha! im not buying no junk food etc so its good :)

I had a "skill test" today for another call centre job, and i fucked up badly! i had to type the text up the top box into the bottom one, and on one of them i didnt see the bottom bit and missed like 2 paragraphs!! i just got an email back then saying i didnt meet their typing speed criteria, i hate them, if someone is behind me, telling me what to say, or like on the phone, or its coming from my head, im fine, but if i have to copy from up above i cant do that as good for some reason.

Apart from that nothing much has happened, been pretty boring. Im sick of the pimples that are coming out lately! i wish they would all just go away!! GRR!!

Mel.!

its been ages :(

Ok, it has been like 2 weeks since i have blogged my life has been turned upside down and im back at mums, hence no blogging.

Me and brad are currently on "time apart" or whatever it is he wants to call it, he wanted me to leave so im at mums now :) no big deal for me really cos im saving lol im going on holidays in feb or march next year, and need to save about 2 grand by then, with no job and on centrelink that is hard! im going to VANUATU!!! YAY!! i have a mate going over there for 3 months, we crashing at her rented house so dont have to pay for accom, only passport, flights, and spending money and food etc. so about 2 grand will be enough i think only going for a week haha.

Food wise, im not eating much, im hardly hungry is that a good thing or a bad thing? tonight it is only me and james for tea (brother) and he wants la porchetta, so im going to attempt some pasta, im being brave lol havent tried it yet. i have lost 13.5 kilos yay!! i have gone down a size in clothing, and they have no elastic!! OMG!! i love it!

I am so badly job hunting, for saving reasons, and i honestly think if i get a job, brad will see im changing and we get back together, i do want to get back with him, i still love him heaps that will never change, but i am not hurt by what is happening at the moment as i believe it is a stage he is going through.

Anyways will blog tomorrow, as i now have the spare laptop, and the spare tv here YAY! haha, so can blog :P and my belly rumbling and i have to ring up tea, its faster apparently,

Mel.!

sleep deprivation no good either!!

I have been slack lately, yes i know, but here is my blog for the last like week?

I worked at the show, it started off ok, was for a spit company, im not even going to mention their name as they can go and jump in a creek with a cement slab tied to their feet as far as im concerned! i was doing th 8-3 shift, on saturday i asked for my lunch break at 2pm, her reply was "no, your not entitled to a lunch break when you do the 5 hour shift" i looked at her, gave her an evil stare and said " Exscuse me, i have been here since 8am, i am in my 6th hour, i have had 1 toilet break all day, and i finish in an hour, if you are not going to give me my lunch break, i will just walk off and take it!" Mind you the smokers could go outside for a smoke whenever they felt like one, took longer out there than you did on a loo break! even when busy as, they were still allowed out there WTF! she became a real bitch as she wasnt selling no spits, so was taking it out on as, getting arky, snapping etc, so i didnt go in on sunday :) i called in sick :P i went down to get my pay tho, $13 an hour! slave labour!

Food wise, has been ok, no problems as yet, i think i need another fill to be honest. although i havent been eating much from stress wise, pissing me off majorly. brad took snags out last night for tea, oh yay! im so over them im sick of them! i might have a fish thing i dont know.

Im so tired, didnt get much sleep from working at show, although i came home exhausted, i still couldnt sleep, me and brad had a fight sunday night, couldnt sleep then, then monday morning mum rings up at 7:30am, saying nanna is in hospital again! she hasnt been in for 2 years or so? i not sure. She has heart probs, and had pains 4:30pm sunday, told aunt, they did the tab under tongue, went away apparently, then again 12:30 at night, she didnt tell aunt and did the tab under tongue, then she got more at 3:30, woke up my aunt, and did the tab under tongue, and my aunt called the ambos. she is in there till thursday apparently, could be longer tho, she did abit of damage to her heart, only half her heart worked before it, only one kidney works, the list goes on. it will be 17 years on thursday since my grandpa passed away, and i thought she might have wanted to go on the same day? you know how people do that, but i went and saw her again today and she looks alot better than yesterday, so i dont think so now :) im so fucking glad tho! That would be all i need! i the closest with my nanna than any of her grand kids i think, oh except my cousin who is 12, but thats only cos she there all the time cos nanna looks after her, and she named after my grandpa etc. but apart from that, if she needs to get taken somewhere, its me she calls even if my cousin who lives not even 20 mtrs away is home i have to go, mind you i live on other side of town haha.

Because of nannas heart probs lately, has got me back into my mode, i have been slacking off, but now i am getting back into it :) I told her she HAS to live past 80 (she 79 and 7 months now) because i organising a party for her haha, she laughed and told me to go away :O

Anyways enough rambling, i have emails to read, a lunch to organise for thursday, and all that kinda stuff :)

Mel.!

Fill me up baby!!

I got my fill today! What a way to have a first fill, it nearly scared me off for good haha. Walk in there, "hows everything going? you able to eat normally now?" i said yes. "ok jump up on the bed, and i will put a fill in" ok. So up on the bed i get, he gets it all ready and inserts the needle, finds the port but the needle wouldnt go in it :S he keeps trying for a few mins "oh i will try a different needle" STAB WOUND TWO!! this one must have been finer, as OH MY GOD it stung like hell! but it did the job, i could feel the difference straight away, is that normal? lol

For tea i got some potato and gravy from KFC, with a tub of gravy aswell, mixed some up with most of gravy and i had no problems, slid down easy peasy :) No problems at all. Brad wants tuna and potato pie for tea tomorrow night, i think that should be fine for me, as its mushy and sloppy kinda, like a tuna mornay minus pasta, with mashed spuds on top :) easy to eat food :) I have to go back to surgeon on the 29th, so 13 days away, he said i might need another fill? :O there is 4 mls in there now, he said it can hold over 10, he put 2 in at time of op.

I am losing my voice! it is bugging me lots. Everyone i talk to laughs at me from it :( its not fair, and i am working for 4 days this week at show where i have to talk!! help!! anyone got any remedies? Atleast will fill in now, and not being hungry, i wont be tempted to eat show food whilst there? lol

Anyways only short blog tonight, i need a nap hardly slept lately :( brad did 13 hours today so he already in bed haha.

Mel.!

Stress is no good!!

This week kind of got a little better, but yet again, it is a saturday night, and how have i spent my day you asked? Well, i got up about 8am, brad got up about 9 or so, we went to mums so she could take up his pants, we came home, i cooked some cocktail frankfurts for lunch. He dropped me off at mums at about 1ish or so, and i have spent the rest of the day there chilling with mum, and i have only just got home, and its 8:45. I only came home as dad is playing an army game so i couldnt use the pc there so i came here. So much fun! another saturday night i will be spending on my own. Its like the 4th now? ive honestly lost count. Its beyond the joke now its seriously pissing me off. Yes i have talked to him, told him i want to spend time together etc, "oh we can spend time together during the week" im like going clothes shopping for you, so you can have new clothes to wear out again isnt classed as spending time together. All we have been doing is fighting, i have been getting stress headaches, which makes me grumpier and GRRR!!

Now, about the eye doctor. My close up vision is the same, which is just a little bit wrong, but its my far away vision that is bad now, it was fine in 04, but now i need glasses for it :( i decided on getting multifocals, i am using my old frames, so it will be cheaper, and OMFG it is $358 for the lenses only!! WTF! out of that i get $120 back from my heath fund, plus i can claim another 50 or 75 in 60-90 days after paying for them! Do they think money grows on trees?

I dont know if i mentioned it in last blog, but i am going to again now :P i am working at the show here, its 4 days from 8-3 $13 an hour, cash in hand on the day, so that is going towards my glasses, and my fill which im getting on tuesday. Thats from thursday till sunday. It serving hot roast beef rolls that has been cooked on the spit, and cleaning the equipment. I dont know how i will cope with the smell, i think i will take chewy with me haha.

Food wise, tonight me and mum made canaloni, it had mince, garlic, basil, bread crumbs, egg in it, with tomatey sauce over it and cheese, was delish! i managed 2 of them, and my salad. I still havent had no problems with food, i havent weighed myself since starting the gym 2 weeks ago, we going monday, and then again tuesday before i go to surgeon for fill, so we can compare the scales lol. I need to lose this weight, my self esteem is so fucked up atm. one of my good mates just rang me, to go out tonight with her, she been drinking since 10am!! and i said nah i be right, i think i just have a quiet one at home. She was going to shout and all! whats the deal with that!

Anyways enough from me, will post again soon!

Mel.!

what a crap week!

This last week has been hell for me, everything has been going wrong, and its just getting to me. It started when brad decided to go to a mates for drinks and watch dvds, instead of coming to my cousins 21st with me and my family. The weekend before he went out clubbing, got home 8:30am the next day, i didnt mind that, that much, the bit that pissed me off is he has a habbit of turning his phone off, so i cant call him! GRRR! anyways the last week he has been a real pain in the ass, i reckon he doing it to see how i retaliate? like last night was almost the final straw i tell ya i was so close to walking out that door and not coming back!

In result to this, i have either been eating heaps, or not eating at all, i hardly touched my tea last night, i wasnt in the mood for food, its still sitting on the table as i asked him if he wanted it as was curried snags, his fave he said ok. And i still feel as tho i have put on! i will weigh myself at the gym today.

My eyes have been playing up, yes i have glasses but its mainly for reading, and pc when i get headaches really, but lately i cant seem to focus in on stuff was at the pub for lunch with mum yesterday and i couldnt even read the board not even 5 meters away :( i just couldnt focus, mum said it is prob the stress doing it? anyways i did have an appt for tomorrow at 9am, but i rang up and changed it to today at 3pm, whilst we in there we will go shopping aswell :)

Ok back to rebeccas 21st :P i had a great night, she put on the invite "drinks at bar prices" and i was talking to my other cousins girlfriend and saying how tight it is etc, all they doing is having a dj, and hiring the hall, which they prob got for free as becs brother plays footy there, and they made all the finger food. I said they could atleast have a tab! haha. We rock up there, and my uncle gave us a blue wrist band, im like whats this for? he goes oh, family gets free drinks! i said oh cool! when vicki (cousins g/f) rocked up, i ran over showed her my band and we both cracked up laughing as they must have realised it was abit cheap? :P I mean who has a 21st and you buy your own grog? So we took advantage of it :P i made sure we got 1 for the road on way home aswell haha! it was the first time i have drank in 2 years, i had no brad there to piss me off, so i had fun :)

Everytime i went to get something to eat, as we didnt have tea before we went, and i knew i had to eat, my nanna would look at me and go "put it down! your not meant to be eating that!!" i mean it was a mini quiche!! haha, vicki heard her so she went and got me one later on and i hid from nanna haha! i should say the same thing to her when she eats tomatoes and that cos of her gout! good idea! I picked up a sandwich triangle, it had chicken, lettuce and avacado on it, and she gave me that look again, i said NANNA!! SHUSH!! haha everyone looked at me!

ummm what else has been happening? ive been feeling crap during the week, getting the runs every few days, had to cancel gym yesterday cos of it :( i think that is stress related aswell. He seems to think there is nothing wrong with ditching our plans and going out with mates, i REALLY wanted to go to the zoo this weekend, i havent been since i was a kid, but his reply "oh i will see what i have planned!" i dont mind honestly, if he wants to go out, he can, i will spend time with mum, i seem to have more fun with her lately :( She is like my best friend :)

Anyways enough rambling on, i gotta get dressed, i just had shower, then i realised im going to the gym? haha will have another one later aswell :) Will post again soon.

Mel.!

I honestly thought i was going to die!!

I had another gym appt today, and damn did she work us!! at one stage i felt like collapsing i was that buggered haha! she kept going to me "c'mon melissa, i know you can do heavier than that!!" i was doing 50 kilos on the leg press one!! OMG!! it was abit easy tho so i think i go down a notch next time haha, looks like all them years (10 infact) of marching gave me strong legs? :P mum was laughing at me aswell, as i was marching on spot at several stations, and she goes "can tell you did years of marching, look how your doing that, knees are coming up straight (as in so a straight line when leg lifted up), toes pointed down etc! its been like 7 years or so since i have done it aswell haha, but when i lose weight i wanna go back. I LOVE the dance side more than the actual drill bit.

Our next appt at gym is friday at 12, thats the next time we could get in that suits both me and mum but thats fine, thats our last one we have to book in for then can just go whenever after that. I really like it tho as its small, and friendly, probably said it before but it is awesome!! haha

We may be going out for tea tonight, mum wants to, i cant be bothered cooking, and brad wants to aswell, i dont know what i feel like tho haha will go to the pub down the road tho, they have awesome meals at cheap prices. $12 for a steak! and its an awesome steak best one i have had for AGES and sooooo tender and juicy MMMMM might have that actually :P

I have nannas heart excercise place with her tomorrow, and im not going to be getting up and helping her, my aunty can haha im too sore today from the gym today. She wants to go to the village (shopping centre) after it to buy some new black pants, cos its my cousins 21st today, and her party is saturday night and she wants some for there apparently. Brad has already told me he not coming to the party,im shitting with him about it, as he is never going to partys that involve that family lately, i dont blame him tho, but i would appreaciate it if he could come. They have a tendancy of always putting my uncles (married in) family first, over nannas family etc, they are italian, so if nanna is sitting there, and my aunt asked if she wants soup once, nanna said yeah ok, then uncles dad walked in, aunty walked off, got him seated etc, got him some soup and forgot about nanna! i mean its her own mother!! my aunt who lives with nanna had to do it! ok enough rambling there :P

Brad has just put hot water in the sink hinting i have dishes to do haha, so thats it for me :P Will blog tomorrow after nannas appts.

Mel.!

Happy Mel :)

I started gym today!! its awesome there, i love it haha! we only did the circuit once, as was first time, but we are booked in for wednesday at 10:30am, to get taken around again. We got weighed and measured today, i have still only lost about 8 kilos so far, my weight loss has slowed down alot!! I have 2 1/2 weeks till i get my fill aswell!! Man im not liking this stage, im thinknig of bringing fill forward.

Saturday night i got like an hours sleep, brad went out with mates from work to celebrate geelong winning the grand final, he got home 8:30 am the next morning, I will admit, i actually rang the ED worried about him (hell with geelongs bashing history lately wouldnt you? haha) but they said no one by that name had been there that night, the little terd wasnt answering his phone, he is not a going out person, he is a quiet kinda person you know what i mean? thats why i was worried :( he gets home and bugs me soo much i walk out and go to mums! i was too tired for his rubbish, and he wouldnt leave me alone when i tried to sleep so i went out :) he is still sucking up now, im loving it haha he knows i like when people play with my hair, so came up yesterday and goes "oh look how long your hair getting, its going curly and i like it, you going to keep growing it?" i said yes, and thats all i said haha giving him the silent treatment :P

I had steak and veg for tea, omg was so yummy! can you tell im addicted to steak? i had no sauce on it tonight and had no problems at all. i havent yet had a "stuck" moment, and people who have been done after me, no fills etc have told me they have had a few. im glad tho haha i dont want that pain.

Today at the gym, i was worrying about getting on the scales for that ERROR message cos im too heavy, i got on and the little o's went around im thinking "oh shit!" but then a weight came up i looked at mum and smiled cos she knew my worry haha. Then she gets on them, mind you my mum is tiny, well i think she is, she a size 14-16 if even that but she is short haha, she hasdnt hoped on scales for 12 months or more and was shocked she was around same weight as back then!

Anyways im off to look in freezer to see what i feel like cooking for tea tomorrow night, im thinking stew? but its going to be warm, so maybe not :(

Mel.!

I joined a new gym!!

The shopping centre near us has been under contruction for about 6 months or more, prob more, anyways there was rumours a female only gym was going to be opening there, well was opening day today for most shops, so we went and looked, and contours has gone there. So me and mum went up and had a look around, they talked us through how it all works etc, how the "29 minutes" is spent on the circuts etc and yeah. we decided we would swap over to there instead of one we at now, as we dont go there, this being smaller, female only and ALOT friendlier, we will go here more often :) we have made a deal we will do mon, wed, anf fri, and then if we feel like going again during week we will.

Anyways, i was number 1 person to sign up! haha mum was number 2! i should have got presents hey!! we got no joining fee, its $59 a month, the other gym is $60 a month for me, and for mum it was nearly $90 cos she had dad on it aswell, but as he dont want to do gym for now thats another reason for the swap :) Anyways, we got a backpack, drink bottle, hand towel thing, and a lanyard for our membership card which im just going to keep in the back pack and use as gym bag :) Wanna hear the best bit? cos we have to give old gym 30 days notice to quit, we still had to pay the next $60, so contours said they give me and mum first month free, not meant to tell no one tho but who on here lives near me :P haha. So im gonna be going and making use of the spa, sauna, and pool at the old gym whilst i can, and still use contours :)

Apart from that, not much been happening, i have lost about 9 kilos or so all up, i think i need a fill, as im eating more and more each time and the fullness not lasting as long as it used to :( My job interview went well, well i think it did, he said to me that the girl who he interviewed before me has about the same amount of experience, (mine is about 5 days haha) so its just about picking the right one. I so hope i get it!!

Im getting sick of hearing about geelong footy club, yes i live in geelong, but im over it, brad is going out with the boys from work on saturday drinking for the grand final, and i told him to watch it in town, with all the assults, rapes etc been happening in there, that plus this and even more people there it will be worse :( but apparently they meant to be having the dogs and horses out on saturday night or something? i still dont think it will do much. I dont know what me and mum are doing, she said something today about going to someone from her works place and having a few drinks there? who knows!

Anyways im off, i gotta clean :)

Mel.!

I got a job interview!!!!

I applied for a job at 8:30am this morning, it is now 2:!6pm and i have just had a call back saying the employer wants to have an interview with me tomorrow at 11:30. Its for a bar/gaming position, dont need experience as they will train, and its justa round the corner from my place :) so all is going good so far for me haha.

One thing i dont know about tho, is do i tell him i have had this surgery, and i will be losing weight, so if i do get the job instead of paying for work shirts (like most do) i might be able to wear a shirt in the same colour saves going through so many? Does that make sense? Can anyone tell me how to word this to him?

Tomorrow im going to be digging at mums aswell,we doing a vegie patch :) Thursday we going to buy the plants but digging it all up tomorrow, will prob put them in pots for a week so the ground can soften, her ground is hard as!!

My hunger is coming back, i am thinking of ringing the surgeons office and seeing if i can get in earlier for a fill, im eating anything now and not having no problems i honestly think i have put most of my weight back on :( my appt with him isnt until the 16th so i still have about 3 weeks or so to go there!

Im off to nannas shortly we got them some rhubarb, brads mum was meant to dig hers up and bring it down (from house she selling but pfft i doubt that will ever happen!) so i have it sitting on the boot of car in the sun, cos i dont want the dirt and that in here :P

Anyways i be off, gotta get some stuff organised, then im off to nannas :) brad has tomorrow off as a RDO so that will be good, sleep in :P

Mel.!

Its been a week!! sorry!!

Sorry for no blogging :P i havent been bothered to be honest, i have been feeling really BLAH! haha

I didnt end up doing my PT session, for the whole blah issue, i am soo tired lately, all i want to do is sleep, seems i can never get enough! I have been applying for jobs like they going out of fashion this week, i have seriously applied for heaps, like over 30 or so? out of them i bet ya i hear back from say 1 or 2 saying i didnt get it?

We went and got brads sister friday night, got my cous abbey on way up there, cos she was staying the night aswell, got pizza when we got home as we were starving and i didnt want to cook haha. We got 2 large, 1 garlic bread and a bottle of pepsi for $21! bargain! haha i had 2 peices and i was stuffed! 2 peices? OMG! record for me getting full EVER!!

We went to the show on saturday, i am soo sore today from it, my hips hurt, my stomach hurts, i dont know why that hurts :S its like under ribs area, but in the fatty bit, but its near my scar that didnt heal properly aswell so i dont know haha. we took lunch, and drinks and snacks etc and i was stuck with the back pack, i think if i had a pedometer on i would have clocked that thing! most walking i have done ever, i hope i lost weight from it haha.

I rang brads mum last night cos his sister wanted to go home, as they werent getting along with each other, he was being smart, and teasing her and she took it too seriously! she was meant to be staying till tomorrow, but come to think about it, im kinda glad she went home today. She smokes, she told me, but not brad. She would go have a shower at night and have a smoke at the same time he smelt it last night and asked if she was smoking, i said yeah she told me but didnt want me to tell him as he would go mad at her, he understood that but didnt say nothing to her, where as i would have told her to go outside and smoke, we dont smoke, no one smokes inside here for this reason. She ended up going outside alot for them aswell he noticed.

Serious question, is it normal to poo alot? well not alot, but like little bits several times a day maybe 2 or 3 times? its annoying me, as i get bad pains in stomach, like need to go loo there and then and really hurts aswell :( I think i might go to doctors tomorrow about my back, its still playing up and hurting more :(

On a happy note!!! me and brad have been together FOUR YEARS today!! WOOHOO!! i told him 4 years too long :P his sister asked me how i have survived this long, as he is constantly annoying me, bugging me etc, yes sometimes it pisses me off, but others i get him back for it :P

I was brave tonight and had steak for tea!! OMG it was to die for! i won a meat pack in the raffle down the club down road on thursday night and got steak, 2 diff flavour snags, a roast thing with honey and rose or something, some bacon and some mince meat, so we cooked the steak tonight, and i had a egg with it, it was delish! i havent had steak for like 6 weeks? i missed it soo much and i had no problems with it at all!! was awesome!!

Anyways, enough rambling from me, rove is on :P

Till next time........

Mel.!

bad weather please go away!!!

Brad must forget that i have had this surgery! honestly! he cooked pasta and sauce for tea, did it the usual way, pasta on plate and then sauce and cheese on top! i had to tip it into the pot again and mix it all around to mix all together :) i also took out 3/4 of what he put on my plate and put on another plate for him for later, and even then i still havent eaten all i dished myself out! and im full as a pig! haha

We went to see nanna today, and my aunt who i dont see much was there and said i have lost more weight from my face. I can see it abit, did i mention yesterday that brad said i look like his mum with my hair up? haha they talked about the melb show, which we taking my cousin abbey (she 12?) and brads sister (she 16 end of this month) that was boring haha

Came home, went to coles as mum wanted to buy some soft drink and we needed bread etc, $50 later we came out! the amount of junk food he bought himself is amazing! I got him to buy me some mixed nuts, and some of them Double D mints aswell :) so i have something to nibble on whilst he has his lollies, and corn chips, and war heads, and what ever else he bought haha.

I have my PT session tomorrow, i just hope the weather is good, as today has been really dodgy weather, verry windy, and rain etc looks like it is about to storm but it just wont come. And it will be down at the beach aswell, so hmmm i dont know i will have to see how it is at about 3pm, pt session is at 3:45 so will ring her if it looks dark and gloomy etc.

Mel.!

My legs hurt :(

I know i havent posted for a few days so here is the latest .....

thursday Mum and I took nanna to her heart place, i did one of the things with her, and now my legs KILL! even today still walking around hurts lots, but i am managing, and pushing through it :P Dad took us for lunch thursday, i had lambs fry and bacon, i thought if im not eating much irony things lately i would have some of that, i managed to eat most of it, a few chips and gave dad the rest of chips and my salad. i was full as full!

Friday nothing really exciting happened. abit boring actually, abit of housework etc and thats about it. We went down the pub down the road for tea i had chicken parmy and pot ($10) didnt even attempt the chips, was full as full again!!

Today OMG i feel like my legs are about to drop off, i have just had a hot shower, and am about to rub some deep heat into them, or i might get brad to do it and massage at same time and then i dont get stinky hands :P and its the top bit of legs 2 so hurts lots :(

Today we went shopping :) I got a new phone, its on a plan, at telstra, $49 a month its a LAVENDER (the nicest colour EVER!!!) motorola V3xx? next g one, i got sick of my other one, it kept going in and out of umm reception, and i thought i wanted a new one, although only got last one for xmas :P Brad also got a new one, a hiptop3? like $700 :S but its nice, i like it alot, $30 data a month, and gets free net, free msn all them things so its good :) and has the little keyboard aswell when you flip it around :)

We went out for tea tonight, to an all you can eat place! OMG im soo full!! I hardly had anything to eat either, brad paid for me mum and dad, as he didnt want just the 2 of us to go haha. So him and dad had an eating competition! man them 2 are pigs, brad won tho haha you honestly would not believe how skinny he is and how much he can eat! its bizzare!! Me and mum were feeling sick just watching them, brad comes out gets in the car to drive home and goes "oh bub, i can feel my stomach stretching already!!" hahaha!

Anyways im off, i havent got dressed from shower yet, just a BIG fluffy towel, and the heater on :) and walk to remember is on, i absolutley love this movie but my tv going funny so i might put the dvd of it on :)

Mel.!

No needle!! YAY!!

I had my appt with surgeon today, he said everything is going well, he asked why i didnt call him about my wound not healing properly, i said i had to go to doctors anyways, so i just got them to do it whilst there. He said thats ok. Other wounds are healing great, no fill yet either, according to their scales i have lost 7.4 kilos, but that was with my jeans on, and a different top than i got weighed in on thursday. I have another appt on the 16th october, hopefully i get a fill then :P i dont think i honestly need one at the moment, im not really getting that hungry, the weight is still slowly coming off, and i havent even started excercise properly yet.

He asked about the excercise bit, i said i am going back to gym tomorrow, as i wanted his all clear first, no probs there :P I asked how much it cost when i do get a fill, the receptionist write it down, i think i be out of pocket about $80 all up? OMG! i think, all up its $183.60 and you get $105.85 back. So $77.75 all up, that is for the fill and the consult, is that good, bad or what? Thats alot for a little bit of saline that goes in!!! GEEZ!!

We are having them steamed in microwave fish things for tea, thai coconut curry, with mashed spuds, peas corn and carrot, first REAL meal i have had in ages haha.

My aunty went to see her specialist today, i dont know what happened yet, i have to go out that way tonight so i will call into nannas see if they know anything, if not i will wait till we get told, she is one of them ones who dont let much out if you know what i mean? She has top cover in her health fund, and is going private, mum said in that situation you get put in ASAP, so hopefully she gets done like soon. I dont know how i would cope if it was my mum in that situation, my mum is my best friend, we have become ALOT closer since i have moved outta home, she knows things about me that others dont, and i know things about her that brother dont, well i dont think he knows, she told me when i told her something, secrets are good in most situations :)

I applied for a job at the local show which is in end of october i think, or half way through, i got an email back today asking if im currently working or studying, and if i can do the whole 4 days as advertised, i emailed them back telling them i am available for all 4 days, and not currently working :) its catering stuff, so easy, ive done it before :P

Brad just told me a "work joke" did you hear about the new viagra? "no" oh, well you put it in tea, then when you dip your biscuit in there, it comes out hard! Omg! some of the jokes he comes home from work with, i just roll my eyes at him most times like that one! haha!

Anyways im off, tea nearly cooked fish gotta go in microwave :P

Till next time,

Melissa.!

Be sure to self check!!

I got a phone call this morning, about 8am, from my aunty (lives with nanna) she tried to ring last night but i was out with mum, anyways one of my other aunty's (married into family) has just found out she has breast cancer :( She found the lump 2 weeks ago whilst in shower, went straight to doctors etc, they did the tests and she found out yesterday. Goes and sees specialist this week sometime and will be doing chemo and radiation i think. I hardly talk to this aunty as i never see her, the only time i see her is at birthday parties, or christmas them kind of things, but i always talk to her when i do see her. She is 52 i think :( I just hope to god she got it in time, susan (aunt who lives with nanna) said its in the early stages, so that sounds better than nothing i guess.

I have already lost an uncle from cancer, it will be 4 years in december :( He was married into family aswell, but i was ALOT closer to him than i am this aunt, i would see him all the time etc, i met brad in september the year he died, brad went up and seen him a few times they had male talks etc, and the day before he died, he said to mum "dont let them two seperate, he is the perfect guy for melissa" In 3 months he knew that? I dont like losing people, i have lost to many in my life, like way too many fay is going to get through this! i know!

Today has been a down day, i have been thinking over people i have lost etc, and i havent been eating :S i am just not hungry at the moment, although i am going to make myself something for lunch in a minute as i know i have to eat, and i wont lose weight not eating etc, its just i dont know.

I finally rang the PT today, and im booked in for 3:45pm on monday! she said just start off as walking for 30 mins, i asked her how much it was after my 4 sessions have ran out, she said $30 for 30 mins, or $40 for 60 mins, i asked about taking someone along, she going to write all the costs down for me and give to me on monday :) Im happy about that already as i really havent been doing excercise just the occasional walk here and there, and i walked the other day for about 25 mins i think it was.

Im making chilli con carne buritos for tea, i have been wanting to try these for AGES and thought i might aswell try them whilst i still can, i can eat anything now really, havent had any troubles yet either. I am off to see the surgeon tomorrow, hopefully he gives me a fill date haha!

Ok, im going, i have dishes to do, and a lounge room to clean up, in 30 mins before brad gets home, but i leave you with this message, remember to do self checks, AND regular pap tests, i have never had a pap test done, and im going to ring up and book in for one soon i think, im scared of them :(

Mel.!

You are getting sleepy .......

I have been lazy lately, not really but i have been sleeping alot!! On friday night we went to Bendigo, James's mates band was playing up there, (james is their little groupie goes everywhere with them haha) So we left about 5pm, could have been earlier if amy told us she cancelled her drs appt GRR! Stoped of at daylesford for tea, i had a chicken parma, well 1/2 one if that, some chips and the little bits of capsicum that was in the salad. We got to bendigo visited my cousins up there then went to the pub.

It was an ok night, until near the end when dad showed up, drunk as. Mind you, we told him not to turn up, he was 30 min drive away, and had to drive to get there, i rang him, told him to stay where he is continue drinking there, as i dont want him wrapping the car around a tree, what happens he turns up! MALES! me and mum walk straight outside (to avoid dad, had a heated argument on phone with him and i didnt want to be near him, my own safety :) ) then i hear the band stop and say "ohh so thats where james gets his good looks from hey? he told us you dont venture out of the house after 9pm" something like that, i go in, bring him outside, ask where the car is (btw as mum walked past him she took the keys outta his pocket and he didnt even know haha) he said he got taxi, as if! so we walked the streets, verry cold, verry dark. couldnt find it, james gave us his keys we went to cousins (about 5 min drive away) and the car was there! he must have got cab from there to pub he wouldnt have walked it. We got car, went back picked them 3 up, took dad to cousins where car was, then took the car to the cop shop, left it out front and gave them the keys. Simple!

We ended up getting home 4am, i come inside and see a note on fridge from brad " Melissa, im sleeping in bed in our room, so shhhhhh ok? Cuddles already?" haha dag! I go to bed, and sleep half the next day :P

Saturday comes, im too tired to do anything we go to town, have a look around and be bored, had fish and chips for tea last night at mums, i had a peice of grilled fish, and a calamari thing, was sooooo tender!! no probs either :P

Today we get a call at 8:45am, from brads mum, asking if we are going up there today, he said yes, so we got there about 1pm, she had some cake thing from bakers delight, she knows i have had the op done and goes to me "not hungry melissa? have a peice" i said nah i will be right thanks. Then she bought out some turkish bread with garlic, spinach leaves and some ricotta cheese on it, i had a bit of that, as i was starving lol she gave us some mint to grow aswell :S that family is weird did i tell you already? The mint is still in the car, im too tired to go out and get it :P

We are taking his sister to the show on the 22nd or 23rd, cant be the weekend after as its her 16th, and i dont really want her down here for that, thats a family thing, not a brad and melissa thing! Anyways, it be mine and brads 4 yrs on the 23rd :( and we cant go out for tea, unless we get his mum to pick allison up about lunch time, like go to show on saturday and get her to get her sunday lunch time? that way we can still do something? I think he going to ask for the monday off aswell, doubt he will tho, what he says and does are 2 diff things :P

Anyways my stomach is rumbling, it feels like it is eating itself, now to look in freezer for something quick and easy for tea :P

Mel.!

Ever wondered what I look like?

Well here it is, i promised pics, so here they are! 1 is of me down beach on sand under bridge thing, taken about a month or 2 ago, the other is of me and my brother James, taken in 2001 when he did the deb with my best friend! Apparently James and I look nothing alike, yeah he is skinny and good looking, im fat and ugly :P Everyone keeps telling mum "oh melissa has such a pretty face"

What else has been happening, well tonight i am having lasangna for tea, yes brave i know, but i can start next "phase" and can have pasta with lots of sauce, mince meat, chicken, dry bikkies with cheese etc, and brad felt like one of them shop bought lasangnas so we got one. hope it goes down well haha, i had a peice ofgrilled flake for lunch from the fish shop down the road, first time i been to that one in ages and i will be going back for sure! was the best ever!!

I am STILL bored outta my brains, the repair guy was meant to be here at 3:30-4:00 today, well it is now 4:31 and still no sign, so if he not here in the next 15 minutes, i will ring real estate AGAIN! i hope they want to pay my phone bill as i been calling them hassling them non stop. I had to get James to tape all saints last night, i havent watched yet as when i got it here, it was 2:30, and i thought, knowing me the guy will rock up and interupt me so i have left it. PFFT males! never on time, can never do as they are told, and ALWAYS know how to piss us females off hey!

Everyone at brads work is still asking about me, apparently someone told her sister, and now she wants to have it done :) someone asked him why i went to such a drastic measure to lose the weight, his response was "she has tried everything else, going to gym, eating really healthy, doing all them diet things, but nothing worked, she has some condition that makes her put on weight easy, and the surgeon said this will help her lose the weight and help her condition (PCOS) so she decided on this" gotta love him! lol We were walking into safeway earlier, im in daggy clothes, i mean gym pants and a massive top, and he goes to me "hey bub" i said yeah what you want now? "you know, your belly really is going down did you know? even i can notice it!" haha! dag and a half!

Kate, you dont need an op, you are beautiful, and i KNOW you can do it :P and and, we may even come up to visit you!! i gotta talk to brad about that cos you know he saving for america and all :P not as tho he started yet!! :P

The man just called .... "hello melissa?" yes "i am still at the job in town, is it ok if i come over in the morning to fix your ariel?" i said yeah what time? "is 8am too early or is that ok?" nah thats fine "ok then see you then" i was going to say come as early as you bloody want i want tv back!! haha!

Anyways enough rambling from me, and reney YAY!!!!! i get to read your amazing blogs forever now!!!!! :P

Mel.!

P.S. if i make you sick, or blind or anything from my pics, i take no responsbility! :P you looked at your own risk :P

Bored outta my brains!!!

Ok, so here is the latest goss :P

I am doing well, food wise, i had some toast today with some sauce and strass on it, shhh i was craving it and saw it in the fridge, i bit small peices, chewed and chewed and guess what!!! NO PROBS!! haha yay!! Im finally cooking this tuna pie thing for tea, its like a tuna mornay but has potato on top, smells yummy.

Brad went back to work yesterday, and he came home rather upset haha. Everyone was asking him how my op went, "can she walk?", how much weight i have lost , you know all them questions, and not many asked him how his holidays were haha! awww poor braddles!

Yesterday i decided i will ring the RE about this ariel problem, i mean it bloody blew off on friday, it was monday, still no word. I rang in the morning, to be told "ok we are going to chase them up and see how long its going to be" so when brad got home from work, i rang them again at 2pmish, as i hadnt heard back, i got the same answer, i said "well i find this rather pathetic, we have never been behind in our rent, we have never caused damage to the property, we have let people in at short notice when you were looking for new buyers etc, and you cant even tell me when our ariel is going to get fixed?" meanwhile brad was in the back ground going "GIVE ME THE PHONE!" over and over again, and the woman was going "exscuse me, if you would just listen to me" i didnt ofcourse and kept talking :P next thing i hear is ....... beep beep beep she hung up on me!!! HAHAHA! classic!!

So i rang them back today, i mean i am sooo bloody bored, you never realise how much you rely on tv until you have none! I speak to the property manager, "if you havent got it fixed by tomorrow afternoon, give us a call then, and we will chase them up" i told her i was told it would be fixed last friday! "oh its in the hands of the company fixing it now , not ours" GRRR! screw them and their bloody i dont know i cant think of a word!!

Before you all say it, yes we have got a ariel for inside :P but we dont have the patience to sit there finding the reception haha!

I go see the surgeon next week!! YAY!! im healing great, that open wound one is coming along good, but im still not looking forward to the scar :( hmmph! My jeans need a belt, i can walk across the traffic lights coming home and have to pull them up atleast twice!! Me and mum went to bingo last night, her friend who is my size goes "oh melissa, when you dont fit into your jeans no more, think of me" when we got in car i said to mum, screw her, i payed for them, she can go pay for her own! she always bragging she wins money at pokies everytime she goes so bugger her! Plus, i keeping my jeans as a reminder, not to go back to!

anyways im off, tea is cooked, and smells nice as, gonna go get brad up (he verry tired apparently, you know 4 weeks off then back at work haha)

Mel.!

Lots of goss!

Gee, it has been soo long since i have blogged!! heres the latest :)

I have taken the strip off the doctor put on there, i did that thursday, and it still has a hole but its not as bad, i cant make the ends meet either, so just going to let it heal now, i have nothing on it, letting it dry out :) All other wounds are great :)

Brads sister didnt end up coming down, we rang her thursday night, asked her if she still wanted to come, her reply "nah can i come next weekend?" brad wasn't happy as he hasnt seen her for ages, hasnt spent time with her for ages etc and she said no. He said no she cant come down next weekend, as he starts back at work this week, and he will be stuffed come the weekend, he has had 4 weeks off, so understandable. Means we not going up there next weekend either :P oh, and his mum knows about my op now :) he told her when on the phone.

I will be blogging more over the weekend, as we have no tv, and its verry boring :( we had massive winds yesterday, i went shopping with mum and came home, pulled into carport and saw the bloody ariel on the ground!!! it got blown off! i rang the real estate at 10:15am, told them, they said they have had alot of calls etc the maitanace man is busy etc i said thats fine, thinking it would get fixed that day. Well today is saturday and it is still on the ground, and it is bent, so either they need to straighten it, or buy a new ariel now :) We did go to kmart and get one of them little ones, but dont work, so looks like dvds tonight!

When went shopping yesterday, was looking for clothes for mum to get me for xmas, i tried on a top the size under me now, (im 26 top and i tried on 20-22) and it fitted!!! OMFG!! So i put a 18 on layby :P if it dont fit by xmas i grow down to it, i got a 18 pants aswell, im a 24-26 pants now and im constantly pulling my jeans up but i loves them, they so comfy i dont want to stop wearing them haha so making the most :P

I seriously feel like going to the beach and swimming, but i cant due to the wound that is open abit still :( it has been nice as weather lately aswell! I think we might go for a drive down that way today, and go for a walk in the water :) i want to look at the fresh fish place down there aswell so all is good!

I am on fish now, so far i have had small tin tuna, with mayo and some sweet chilli sauce mixed in, a peice of grilled fish from fish and chip shop with tarte sauce, a peice of fish from in town in batter but took batter off, with sauce again, umm and last night i had a chicken parmy at pub and have had no probs, i couldnt eat it all last night, didnt touch the chips but mum had a glass of coke there incase it got stuck etc no probs with others either!

Ok gotta go, going out with mum and gotta get dressed haha

Mel.!

Abit of glue and hey presto!!

Today the steri-strips came off, all went well, until i got to the last one. It had abit of dry blood on it so i did it slowly for some reason, im bloody glad i did!! THERE WAS A HOLE!!!!! i freaked, rang mum "ummm i took the strips off, and one has a hole, come take me to the doctors i dont want a big ugly scar!!!" so told me her and dad were in town, and she will meet me at the doctors. Deal! Me and brad headed to the drs, met mum there waited an hour and went in to see him.

"good thing you came in melissa, go lie up on the couch and i will have a look" he had his look and goes ok i will be back in a minute, walks out of the room and comes back with some glue!!! He put some glue in the hole, pushed it together then put some more strips on it and off i go :)

I was soo freaked out haha! i mean seriously its been over a week it was meant to be healed :( not a hole the size of 5c peice!!!

I am starting mushies tomorrow, i bought some brocolli today to have for tea tomorrow night aswell as some spuds, will make a white sauce for it :) cant be bothered making 2 lots of sauces so white it is :P brad will be glad as i can start cooking him meals with vegies, he wont be living on pies, his own made curried snags, frozen meals i made or have to go to mums for a meal haha! i told him if he that bored of it, go to his mums for the last week of his holidays! he said no and shut up haha! that got him :P

Mum, dad and brad had chinese for tea, so i got a chicken and sweet corn soup for tea, it had chicken bits in it and i had no problems with it :) was nice actually :P

Anyways im off, i want to control the tv he watching crap!!

Mel.!

Hungry Hungry Hippo's!

Man i am getting hungry!!!! Yes, i know i am supposed to at some point, but i mean its bugging me!!! haha! I have already started thickening up my soups, have been having a yogurt for breakfast instead of a Up & Go, but its the time of night like now that i feel hungry :(

On the paperwork i got from the dietician when i left the hosp, it has the stage after liquids, which has a sample meal plan, for the first week it says ....

Breakfast :
Well-cooked porridge or semolina, or weet-bix with plenty of milk
Lunch and dinner :
Thick soup or mashed/pureed veg
Thick custard or mashed tinned fruit, or mashed stewed fruit, or low fat Fruche/yogurt.

So im stuck, i dont know if im still on liquids, or if i am on the next stage or if i am in between stages? i mean dietician said to thicken it up, and have the yogurts but ohh i dont know!! haha!

So what else has been happening? Rental Inspection today, went well, we put down a few things on the maitence report thingy they gave us, like new carpet! we bloody better get it!! i hate this carpet, i can vac and 2 seconds later its dirty again!! and it is BLUE AND GREEN!!! and we have ORANGE blinds :S talk about the 70's!! Anyways back to the story :P as i havent been able to clean really since op, we called in back up this morning when we had 2 hours till the time to go (we dont stay for these) we called in mum! haha! she folded our endless supply of clean clothes that we have been washing (brad was in a clothes washing stage and washed everything) so that was good :)

My steri-strips are starting to come off, and omg they are annoying me!! the port one is coming unstuck from the middle in, hmmmph, annoyance there :P they come off on sunday anyways, bring on sunday!!

Anyways im watching bridget jones! haha yes i know! but i likes it :)

Mel.!

One week ago today .......

It has already been a week!! man time flys when your having fun hey!! Im getting over the soups etc tho cant wait for mushies stage!! I had pumpkin soup i made before banding tonight that i froze, and omg i couldnt eat it, when i froze it, it was nice a creamy now its all watery :S i think i might have to make some more!!

Apparently my cheek's aint as fat haha! mum told me today, she told nanna whilst on the phone to her and i heard nanna say "yeah well when you left here the other day, i told susan (aunt) that it looks like she has lost weight from her ass as her jeans are really baggy!!" hahaha! dag and a half! I got weighed today, i will post the results at the end of this blog!!

Anyone watch the news tonight and see about that kid getting the primary school in "lock down" mode? haha, i shouldnt laugh but i know the kid, when mum took in my cousin (he is feral i dont like him) he made friends with this kid, anyways he went to the school on tuesday i think to get his siblings and the school ended up in lock down mode, and has been locked up ever since! haha! gold!! apparently he was defending his mum, i know the family personally, and trust me, they have had worse things said to them that what was said, and nothing like this has ever happened, its just attention seeking! BTW, this kid is 11 years old! he is short, and is all talk no bite!

I took nanna to her heart excersice place today, the guy there hasnt seen me for yonks, and goes "what you done melissa, you have lost some weight" nanna let out my secret, he said thats awesome! Nanna told him about the weigh in this morning, and he was even more happy for me :)

Tomorrow is rental inspection day, they say they being here between 11-1 so we going over to mums or out somewhere, i dont like staying here when they come, we have wrote down things that need repairing and will leave that on the bench or coffee table for them :) If they do not replace our carpet this time, i am going to ring them and go ballistic! We have been here over 2 years, and had the same carpet problems since, it is old (blue and green) and worn out, the underlay has deterioated, and has formed lumps, i have several times tripped over them and they are getting worse, we want new carpet!!!

Ok, so this blog is coming to an end as i am running out of things to type about so here is my weigh in this morning ....

Dad goes to a weight loss place, and i went along this morning to jump on the scales as im curious, i went in with dad as he got weighed, we explained to them i have had a lap band put in, (i went to the club for like 3 years to no avail!) and they said yeah sure jump on lets see how your going ..... i lost ..... SIX KILOS!!!!! OMG!! i called mum over to read out the number as i didnt believe it, and they are the same sort of scales they use at my surgeons aswell :) so i hope that this weight continues to drop off!! the last time i got weighed was wednesday last week :) so i wore my same clothes i wore back then haha!

Anyway, time to go, i have stuff to do!

Mel.!

I have the rumbles!!!!

My soups aren't really filling me as much now, i have started to thicken them up, i had one that nanna made me for tea tonight, it had little peices of ham in it that the blender missed and i chewed that and it was fine, tomorrow night im going to try the pumpkin soup i made, see how that goes, but its not really straw suckable so if i have probs i will thin out abit :)

This gas that escapes is annoying me! me and mum went to bingo tonight, i got a little box of milk think and OMG the burps just sneaking out! lucky i had a feeling of it and had mouth closed so wasnt a noisy one (that happened at nannas other night and OMG she cracked up)

Healing wise, i am doing great! I have thought about going back to the gym this week, just light stuff, like treadmill and light bike so dont go over doing it, im going to ring the Personal Trainer tomorrow, and book in fora bout 6 weeks time, that gives me time to go from a slob to atleast some fitness and not look so bad haha!

Brad went to melbourne today, he has been bored on his holidays, i dont like melbourne, i dont like getting trains to melbourne, i dont like melbourne, too many bad bloody memories! if i am with atleast 2 people i trust fully i am fine (casino trip was good as i had mum AND brad with me!) anyways, he gets home, i asked how it went, what he did etc ..... "oh i didnt do much, i went to galatic circus at crown, played a few games there, looked around at myers, cos you know i love myers and there one is soo much bigger than ours!!, oh and i had "donalds" for lunch" i asked did he go to melbourne just so he could have a burger from maccas for lunch and not make me feel bad about it? he said no but it would have been funny as if he said yes hey! HAHA! i honestly dont miss junk food, the one thing i miss is steak :( i have been craving it all week haha! MMMMM surf and turf!!!

I think everyone has seen my wounds now haha! nearly everyone i know that knows about it (not really that many) when they see me i get the "oh how you going, let me see how they did it" i show them and i get the "IS THAT IT!!" im like yep! "serious?" next time i get that im going to say "nah i made the big open cut disapear and i have 5 small cuts on my stomach in its place" Mums supervisor is the best, as they work at recycling place i not allowed to show her inside incase i get it dirty haha, i have to go outside in the carpark and show her, she has seen it twice now i think, she is obsessed but she is awesome :P

I am going to be taking my measurements tomorrow, i have been lazy and havent done it yet, i also have a pic on here that brad took before i had the op but dont show how big i really am, so will do some soon aswell and post them aswell! Dad is looking forward for his fit marching girl back apparently haha!

Anyways thats enough from me, im going to watch all saints from tonight, last weeks didnt work I had the show but no sound, stupid old tape, i told him to put the old set top box back that records!! but has he done it yet? NOOOOOO!!!

Mel.!

a few days in one!

Ok, so here is whats been happening lately....

Saturday night, i went and seen BABBA with my parents, was actually good :) i enjoyed it, the only parts i didnt enjoy were the trapped gas pains i was getting and the wearing jeans when bloated stomach pains aswell haha! Everytime dad wanted a beer i went up and got it just so i could move around, i didnt want to get up and dance, me and dancing dont go sorry :) Although dad was keen i said nah haha.

Sunday was a lazy day mum had to go to the docs, so i went aswell as my top dressings were to come off and the port one looked funny, and the steri-strips under it were starting to lift and they not really meant to come off till next sunday surgeon said. Doc said all is fine, the strips can fall off when they are ready and it wont matter :) but DAMN when he took the top dressing off (i left it on to show him haha) man did it stink! i nearly chucked! *puts on a pommy accent* No melissa, they are healing nicely, im glad you took my advice and got the surgery done, i cant wait to see the results"

Rest of sunday i did nothing major, slept abit (its all i been doing lately) had a shower to wash the stinkyness off them strips and watched some tv last night, went to bed about 9ish i think.

Today i have to go to safeway to get some benefiber, i know im going to need it :) Brad has hardly been eating since i have had this done, as he dont like cooking for one haha so last night he made up a big batch of curried snags (his fave!) and made enough for tea tonight aswell as some left overs i think haha. He wants me to ask the surgeon when i see him on 12 sep "when is melissa allowed to eat curried sausages again?" hahaha dag he is, at the moment im quite enjoying the liquid phase :) For breakfast im having a glass of AJ or OJ and a up and go, for lunch im having Glass of Juice or V8 box thing, a cup of soup and a glass of sustagen or milk with nesquick in it and tea is Glass of juice, a "soup for one" tin of soup and glass of milk or i might swap that for a ice cream square, you know them individually wrapped ones? And then drinking water during the day!

Might go visit nanna today, she rang up yesterday seeing how i was going and since he still on hols, he is bored so the drive out there will be good for both of us i think :P furtherest i been for a drive since being done is town, and nannas is on other side of town :)

Till next time ...

Mel.!

Fat belly Friday!!

I AM HOME!!!! YAY!!!

I got wheeled up to theater at 10:05 yesterday was outside the room for about 30 mins i would say. then i remember waking up in recovery to "Melissa, calm down and stop moving!!" apparently i was "thrashing about" hmmm!

Get back to room, and see my mate on way down there, she nurse in the hosp, then mum and brad come up, mum goes "how you feeling?" i go "I sore!" brad laughed and said i told you she would say that! haha they went home had abit of a rest. then the night time visitors came up, Nanna, and 3 of my aunts and my cousin. then mum and amy! yes ... Amy! i showed everyone else my cuts except for amy, i showed them when she was in the toilet haha!

The nurse gave me a tablet up the butt! anti inflamatry/pain killer apparently, i asked "cant i have a oral dose?" apparently she said its absorbed quicker this way! GRRR! reney i know how you felt about the finger up bum! that didnt even help! GRRR! Then i get another one this morning and find out the DR wrote them up for twice a day! so i quickly asked if i can go home today to stop that happening again! invading my privacy!!

I havent taken nothing for the pain since i been home, i been walking about, resting, i find my bed more comfier than their straight beds! and man the gas! i can now clear the room with a fart hahaha! according to brad "your rotten" not my fault :P

Well thats it for now, im going to go have a shower and try feel abit refreshed :)

Mel.!

Its time!!!

So i have an hour to be ready to leave, and i still have to have a shower with that foamy stuff, get dressed and pack my bag! Hmmm i think i better type faster! haha!

I have honestly been checking if my forehead is hot, i know stupid, but i dont want to go through that again, and guess what ...... Its NORMAL!! yay!! I have the sniffles, but ask anyone who is around me when i first get up and i have the sniffles, i dont know why, it just happens, dad used to hate it, he still does if i go over there after just getting up haha! My cough has settled YAY so all good!! looks like attempt 2 is going to be progress!!

I enjoyed my sleep last night until brad came to bed with soooo many things to say "doing it by keyhole is good isnt it, as it wont take as long to heal hey!" "are you ready for it bubs?" we watched the thing on today tonight about it, so he saw how it is done properly haha! he thinks he is coming up to the hosp this morning, he went to bed 3:30am and im leaving here 7:30 so not much sleep! ill wake him when im nearly ready and find out then :)

Straw-diet wise, i think im ready! i have everything i think. We had pizza last night, as i wanted a nice last meal for a while :P i cant believe it i had 3 peices and i was full as full can be!! i can normally eat more than that i know it!! so now brad has about 1 1/2 pizzas to eat whilst im in there haha! saves him using the meals i froze!

Mum just rang, she getting me 7:15AM!! DAMN!! cuts 15 mins off my time!! and brad is staying here now "cos janet might wait till you have your operation" i said yeah!

Anyways i best be off, will post again when im out of hosp!!!

Mel.!

one sleep to go!! *again*

Today i going to be washing all my clothes i taking in with me tomorrow, make sure i have everything done :P I have to be at nannas at 11:15am to take her to the docs, her appt is 12pm, she lives 15 min drive from the place if even that, she always wants me there early as! hmmmph!

I was going to go to docs this morning to take the letter from the hosp when i fainted etc, and for a check up, but mum took james (bro) in, and lucky i didnt!! He has a highly contagious flu, that you get only 4 times in your life apparently, can knock you around for 2-4 weeks! i think thats what i had last time! so he not allowed to go near old people or children. So as mum as been looking after him she cant come to nannas :( i dont like driving out there on my own! it sucks! i will have to turn cd up hey :)

Am waiting for the call today to find out what time to go in tomorrow, will prob be 12:30 like last time, and im going to ask the woman if i am first or second on the list, i really hope i am first, i dont want to have to wait around haha, last time i was first but it never happened!! I am so not looking forward to that foam wash thing again! i hated it last time, i had to get out of shower (we have a small shower, and being bigger dont help either haha) and do it out there! and plus the hot water tap leaks when its on, and if you bend over it burns ya bum and feels like a spider biting you, even happens to brad haha!

I went to safeway yesterday, bought some panadol rapid souluable, some little v8 juices, they had 5 for $4, i asked brad if i should buy 1 lot or 2, he said considering i have so much stuff here , i think only 1, if i want more he can go get them now :P I still have me up and go's in the fridge aswell as the bottle of v8 juice and ALLLL me soups in freezer :P

I told brad he can buy pizza for tea tonight, i bought him maccas the other night, so he can buy me pizza :P thats a deal hey!

well i best be off, gotta go get dressed etc and go clean out the car, (verry messy has catalouges in it haha) then go get nanna!

Mel.!

3 sleeps to go!!

Incase i haven't already told you, i have stopped the TF shakes until after my op. They were making me WAY tired and when im that tired i am snappy as, and poor brad was getting all that snappyness :( After op i will have 1 shake a day i think maybe every 2nd day aswell i dont know, i havent thought that bit through yet :)

My brother is sick, he went to tassie, came home and had to go straight to doctors. He has a BAD chest infection aswell as a BAD flu, so he not good :( Dads words to me where "you cant afford to get sick, i cant afford to get sick, so we both have to stay away from him ok?" i said yes dad and smiled haha. But in a way he has a point there hey? James has been banished to his bedroom mum told me, I said if i end up going over there whilst he still sick i will wear one of them face masks they wear when they have deadly diseases in the air, you know the sort? haha!

I going to go to supermarket soon, get some of them little V8 juices in tetra packs, i dont want that big bloody bottle in my fridge :P brad can drink that i think thats all i need to buy so far, have the up and go's have 6 of them in fridge, have about 6l of soup in the freezer haha if i want anything else i will send mum or brad to the shop :P I have chupa chups and de-gas aswell already in my bag from last time :P and them hideous TED's man they can shove them where the sun dont fit! Do you have to wear them after the op aswell? someone told me you do for a few days, i dont see brad putting them on me after i have a shower etc, he will laugh at them or something :(

Im going to Babba with mum and dad on saturday night, i going to take pain tabs with me, incase i need them. I have my outfit all planned out, either my black cleavagey top (i not a cleavagey person so i doubt that one) or the white and black one, and my black jeans most likely :) but im worried about bra as my surgeon puts the port near bra line so hmmmm! will have to see there!

I still have my cough from my sickness, its bugging me, i thought it went away but its still here, i have the "i feel like im going to gag and need to cough" thing 2, was telling brad to shut up and stop teasing me (i forget what he was doing haha) and i was like "shut upppphphph" as i had that gagging moment and then he got worse cos i sounded like daffy duck apparently, he is walking around all day doing it now! GRRR! mum was in back of car and made her laugh aswell :( they not very nice are they! NOO!

Anyways, till next time :)

Mel.!

Mel did a bad bad thing ......

Ok ok, so i had it all planned, Melissa was going to start Tony Fergurson on thursday right? Well all went along as planned until ......... I go check the PO box, and there is a slip to pick up a parcel...... so i proceed ....... it was a MASSIVE and i mean MASSIVE bag of lollies :O hahaha! one of my good mates from the internet works in a lolly place, so decided to send me lollies. Yes i had my shake for breakfast, felt good about starting it and getting ready for this op then this happens! Thanks kate!! haha

Although brad has claimed most of them (as they mostly toy ones with like a etch sketch on end, soccer kicking ones etc) i have claimed the white choc easter egg things that she put in :O So tomorrow is really the day, no more care parcels (as she calls them haha) kate!! well not for a long time anyways :P i mean the lollies have shut brad up for most of the day so thats a good thing hey?

I went for a drive to melb airport today to take my brother there, he in tassie now :) Touring with his band mates, free accom, free meals at the gigs, free booze, free transport, i think the only thing he needed to pay for was the airfare! how good is that! haha Nanna came to, so no heart excercise place for her, honestly i dont think she likes it, i mean she is 80 next year, half her heart dont work, only 1 kidney works, they wont operate on her as she wont make it out of the anistetic and they expect her to do these excercises? no wonder she makes exscuses up! yes they may be easy, but you try doing it at her age and in her condition! PFFT!

I should be getting my tax back tomorrow!! yay!! plus we got $100 worth of target vouchers, having $50 each, i dont know if i should save mine for after my op, or use them now? :P i mean i could always buy my dream top or something? or buy new knickers or something? help me decide please :P

Well i best be going, our net going off tonight for "repairs" and they always do it earlier than they say, must be males!

Mel.!