what a crap week!

This last week has been hell for me, everything has been going wrong, and its just getting to me. It started when brad decided to go to a mates for drinks and watch dvds, instead of coming to my cousins 21st with me and my family. The weekend before he went out clubbing, got home 8:30am the next day, i didnt mind that, that much, the bit that pissed me off is he has a habbit of turning his phone off, so i cant call him! GRRR! anyways the last week he has been a real pain in the ass, i reckon he doing it to see how i retaliate? like last night was almost the final straw i tell ya i was so close to walking out that door and not coming back!

In result to this, i have either been eating heaps, or not eating at all, i hardly touched my tea last night, i wasnt in the mood for food, its still sitting on the table as i asked him if he wanted it as was curried snags, his fave he said ok. And i still feel as tho i have put on! i will weigh myself at the gym today.

My eyes have been playing up, yes i have glasses but its mainly for reading, and pc when i get headaches really, but lately i cant seem to focus in on stuff was at the pub for lunch with mum yesterday and i couldnt even read the board not even 5 meters away :( i just couldnt focus, mum said it is prob the stress doing it? anyways i did have an appt for tomorrow at 9am, but i rang up and changed it to today at 3pm, whilst we in there we will go shopping aswell :)

Ok back to rebeccas 21st :P i had a great night, she put on the invite "drinks at bar prices" and i was talking to my other cousins girlfriend and saying how tight it is etc, all they doing is having a dj, and hiring the hall, which they prob got for free as becs brother plays footy there, and they made all the finger food. I said they could atleast have a tab! haha. We rock up there, and my uncle gave us a blue wrist band, im like whats this for? he goes oh, family gets free drinks! i said oh cool! when vicki (cousins g/f) rocked up, i ran over showed her my band and we both cracked up laughing as they must have realised it was abit cheap? :P I mean who has a 21st and you buy your own grog? So we took advantage of it :P i made sure we got 1 for the road on way home aswell haha! it was the first time i have drank in 2 years, i had no brad there to piss me off, so i had fun :)

Everytime i went to get something to eat, as we didnt have tea before we went, and i knew i had to eat, my nanna would look at me and go "put it down! your not meant to be eating that!!" i mean it was a mini quiche!! haha, vicki heard her so she went and got me one later on and i hid from nanna haha! i should say the same thing to her when she eats tomatoes and that cos of her gout! good idea! I picked up a sandwich triangle, it had chicken, lettuce and avacado on it, and she gave me that look again, i said NANNA!! SHUSH!! haha everyone looked at me!

ummm what else has been happening? ive been feeling crap during the week, getting the runs every few days, had to cancel gym yesterday cos of it :( i think that is stress related aswell. He seems to think there is nothing wrong with ditching our plans and going out with mates, i REALLY wanted to go to the zoo this weekend, i havent been since i was a kid, but his reply "oh i will see what i have planned!" i dont mind honestly, if he wants to go out, he can, i will spend time with mum, i seem to have more fun with her lately :( She is like my best friend :)

Anyways enough rambling on, i gotta get dressed, i just had shower, then i realised im going to the gym? haha will have another one later aswell :) Will post again soon.

Mel.!